One Word (almost)

One poem that rhymes on one word,
Something amazing that you’ve never heard,
It actually kind of sounds absurd,
But I know I can do it as I’ve already inferred,
It’s seems you’re still reading so you have concurred,
That one rhyme continues as you have observed,
It sounds kind of neat and it’s hard to conserve,
The words to extend this poems allure,
This poem is actually a kind of cure,
When you’re dying for something a tad bit obscure,
It’s something that is quite hard to conjure,
Something to do with no one to subserve,
It feels very stressful I’m losing my last nerve,
All this for a poem that rhymes on one word.

Not So Bitter Sweet

I feel kind of freed but why is it bitter sweet,
As if everything is broken but piled nice and neat,
Some things are odd and some people are confused,
Some people are misspoken using words that are misused,
Don’t make this sound so bad we should both be happy,
If there’s a better thing then tell me what would that be,
Realizations will precede and may confuse you from time to time,
But if we take the space we need it all will turn out fine,
I know you know that I know we know that things didn’t turn out great,
But you have to remember the saying that nothing’s carved in slate,
If you’re unhappy it’s not my fault I did everything you said,
We took the path to a place we should never have been led,
Remember memories are good because they show you what is right,
But never allow the regret you have to keep you from sleep at night,
Forgive and forget is a lovely phrase and one day it will happen to us,
But not right now because I know we need time to rebuild our broken trust.

Aligned

It’s funny how I know exactly what’s going through your mind,
As if our neurological orbits are perfectly aligned,
How I can tell what you’re thinking when you make that face,
Or what you’re doing even when we’re not in the same place,
It’s difficult to hide something from someone who’s a part of you,
Especially if the thing you’re hiding is one they already knew,
Sometimes we worry ourselves into thinking that someone doesn’t care,
When in actuality that someone is wishing we were there,
There are few things in life that we cannot decide,
Few settlements are made in which choices are denied,
Sometimes it’s to late to fix something once you realize you were wrong,
And the suffering to pay your dues must always be prolonged,
But it’s the suffering itself that gives us the strength to continue,
And when it’s time to choose again you’ll reach deep down within you,
Making sure you do the right thing cause this could be your last attempt,
And you don’t want to make a choice when you’re filled with such contempt,
You’re coming to the realization as you read this word-by-word,
Because as we both know it’s a message we’ve both heard,
It’s funny how I know what your thinking while you’re reading this,
You’re thinking of that moment, the last one we shared in bliss.

Just A Little Bit

I hate this just a little bit,
Just a little bit of rage,
Just a little bit of passion,
Kept in this little cage,
Just a little bit of anger,
And a little bit of hate,
Just a couple of deep cracks,
In my once solid slate,
Just a few sleepless nights,
Just a few missed meals,
Just a little loss,
Of my ability to feel,
Just a few tears,
Just a little pain,
Just a little thing I’ve lost,
And just a little left to gain,
Just a tiny hole,
That’s implanted just a little bit inside,
Just a couple of rules left,
To which I won’t abide,
Just a little practice,
To fake just a little smile,
So that just incase I need to,
I can be in just a little denial,
Just a little thing,
Isn’t just so small at all,
When it’s just the thing I need,
When it’s my everything, my all.

Déjà Vu

I think this already happened,
I know I’ve been here before,
It’s a bizarre feeling of familiarity,
Which I can’t ignore,
I swear that I have lived this,
It’s some kind of déjà vu,
Every time I stray off the path,
I go back to this place with you,
I could tell you what will happen next,
But maybe we will act differently,
Because as I’m slowly finding out,
There’s absolutely nothing that we can’t be
It’s like there’s some kind of absolute plan,
Some over powering force,
And every time we grow apart,
It puts us back on the same course,
I guess you and I will never be apart,
We will always end up together,
Because in this world of broken trusts,
We found something that lasts forever.

Can You Really Feel The Beat

When you listen to music can you really feel the beat,
Does it take control of your body and forcefully move your feet,
Can you feel your heart’s rhythm syncing up with the sound,
Does everyone vanish so there’s no one around,
Can you hear the littlest noises in the heart of the track,
The ones that are there by mistake but can’t be taken back,
Like the slip of a finger on the guitar players pick,
But you hear he kept going cause it was too good to quit,
Can you actually see the noises like they’re painted right there,
And do you watch as they magically vanish into thin air,
Do you feel that this song could bring a dead man to life,
As if the noise is so strong it cuts through you like a knife,
Does this sound pumping out right into your ears,
Give you the feeling that there is nothing to fear,
Are you one with the music like it’s from your soul,
Is it filling the space that once was just a hole,
Are you so entranced with that magic that you know deep in your mind,
That there’s no better place in this world at this particular time,
If so that close your eyes and soak in every note,
Cause soon the song will end cause that’s all she wrote.

We both know you see the signs

We both know you see the signs,
I think its time to put the past behind,
You said yourself there’s no point in holding on
To the anger and sadness when the moment is gone,
So lets hit the reset and see where it goes,
Even though you and I both know,
You’re aware that I love you and you love me too,
And to be next to you there’s nothing I wouldn’t do,
Baby I just can’t wait to see you,
So I can say again hello nice to meet you.

I Don't Feel Like Writing today

I don’t think I will rhyme today because I really don’t want to,
But as you can see it comes so naturally this really must amaze you,
If I could take a break I really would today,
But I seem to always rhyme with everything I say,
I don’t even want to post this because I don’t want it to exist,
But if I didn’t write today tomorrow I’d be pissed,
So I guess I just rhymed a little I hope it sounded nice,
But that’s seriously it so goodbye and goodnight.

All The Same

Can you place me in a column,
Please put me in your list,
Show me the category in your book,
Under which I must I exist,
Can you put me with my carbon copies,
All standing in a line,
But first can you please tell me,
How am I defined,
Please don’t ask me to make the choice,
To dress in white or black,
Because as you can see originality,
Is the single thing I lack,
Can you tell me what’s my archetype,
Under which name do I fall,
Because I think we both know that I’m not special,
Not even a little bit not at all,
I’m so happy we all see the world in grey,
It’s much more beautiful when it’s plane,
I’m glad that you and I agree,
That everyone’s the same,
I enjoy in the lack of expression,
In everyone’s identical lives,
I love seeing the emptiness,
When I look into someone’s eyes,
I only have one question,
Why are you different than us,
Why in this world where we are all the same,
Do you not have our identical trust,
Why do you act so powerful,
And treat us all like we are weak,
Why can you tell us what to do,
When we have to earn the right to speak,
Maybe you should try being the same as us,
And you will hate it more than I,
Maybe then you will shatter all these rules,
To which we all comply.

Time

Time always slows down when you want it to go fast,
And it seems to speed up when you want the moment to last,
It loves standing still when you’re in a moment of sorrow,
And it won’t let today end when you wish for tomorrow,
It lets you catch the bus and miss the train,
It has you check it every second and therefore go insane,
It makes the bad memories stay as the good ones fade,
All the while tampering with the plans that you’ve made,
It adores making sure that nothing will work out,
Even when you had planned it without a doubt,
Time thinks it has influence but I think that it’s wrong,
When we are the ones who gave it power all along,
Time’s just a conception that we have created,
To make sure we’re not early and never belated,
An idea conjured up to help rules take control,
So we could never make a choice just because of our soul,
Taking incremental moments to keep an exact time,
So we could sit down all day and arrange events in a line,
Time is just a peasant to whom we gave power,
And now for some reason in its presence we cower,
Maybe if we stopped counting then we’d see the signs,
They say,
Wait I have to go I’m all out of time.

Bull Shit Light

The light at the end of the tunnel is so bright it’s blinding,
I can’t give up cause my commitment is so very binding,
I’m weakened now you wouldn’t believe who I used to be,
Once so strong flamboyant and courageous but that’s no longer me,
I’m holding on with all my strength being dragged to the finish line,
A place where I can finally say that everything’s gonna be fine,
I’m sure that I will get there no matter what the cost,
This is a race that I will finish even if I’ve lost,
I’ve been going all along with the weight of the world upon my back,
I think it’s time that you give me a break and cut me a little slack,
I want you to know that this light I see is totally full of shit,
There should be no light cause there should be no tunnel cause this situation shouldn’t exist.

Bees

Empty and so confused inside,
No one in whom she can confide,
Lacking the one who will show her the path,
She must get herself up and pick up the slack,
She travels the road to find what she’s lost,
To leave her home is quite the steep cost,
This is a quest that could end in her demise,
It’s success Inconceivable like the way a bee flies.

A swarm of workers but no where to go,
Like a truck with a tailgate and nothing to tow,
More confused than the scarecrow who lives with no brain,
Without a leader they’re going insane,
No one to guide them they’re flying so blind,
It’s a prison in which they are forever confined,
It seems that these bees have no reason to live,
Because they lack the one with instructions to give.

Something Is Missing

I look up but I see down,
I wonder how I lost the ground,
I feel like I can’t catch myself,
Like I’m falling away in such stealth,
It’s something only I can see,
Something from which I can’t flee,
Sometimes I wonder what’s going on,
On those nights I stay up long past dawn,
I find it funny how tired I feel,
That my body acts like sleep isn’t real,
It’s odd that my brain thinks it can take a break,
Not while I’m dreaming but when I’m awake,
Sometimes I feel like my mind doesn’t have thoughts,
And I try to think but my attempts are fought,
And I try to do nothing but nothing’s not fine,
It’s as though my soul’s searching for something I’ve left behind,
I try to remember but I guess I forgot,
The thing that my conscious has so vigorously sought,
It’s like a puzzle that’s white and some pieces are missing,
Like the tea pot is empty but it doesn’t stop hissing,
So I often sit and wonder what it could possibly be,
This one little detail that keep’s me from me,
It’s right in front of my face but it’s blocking my eyes,
It’s not trying to hide that’s why there’s no disguise,
I’m going to go now and think just once more,
And maybe I’ll see something that I missed before.

Don't Read This

Please don’t read this,
Seriously stop here,
What do I have to say,
To make my message clear,
Should I ask very nice,
Or should I be very mean,
Should I be quiet about it,
Or should I make a scene,
Can you at least close your eyes,
Look the other way,
I don’t think you’ll want to read,
What I have to write today,
So stop reading right here,
Or I wont write one pun,
I wont write one metaphor,
Okay fine I’m done.

Queen Bee

You are wrong,
Stop jumping to radical conclusions,
You must first hypothesize,
Trust me my words are all illusions,
Why are you so scared,
You don’t listen to what I say,
If you wanted to help me,
You would just go away,
Do you think that you are clever,
Like you’re connecting the dots,
You live like there’s a light above your head,
Burning one million watts,
If you really were so bright,
I think you’d see the signs,
They tell you to leave me alone,
But I make sure they’re very kind,
Do you think I’m like a rubber band,
Stretched so far that I’m severely cracking,
Do you think I live without a spine,
A book that has no backing,
Are you like the queen bee,
To conceded to leave the hive,
But when one of your workers has a problem,
You know what they need to survive,
You need to calm down a bit,
Think it over till you have a clue,
Maybe then you will understand,
That I don’t need you.

Nothing

Infinite portrait of white,
More blank than your thoughtless mind,
Sometimes the ideas with which to fill it,
Seem quiet hard to find,
Shiny it gleams and it beckons your hand,
To create a work of art,
You stare right through the empty paper,
You don’t know where to start,
So many possibilities,
To fill the endless nihility,
But to the vault where your creativity lives,
You do not have the key,
You see the beauty of the nothingness,
In its perfect nonexistent state,
There is nothing in the world more beautiful,
That you could fabricate,
Nothing is better than nothing,
Because nothing is nothing at all,
And it is in this sudden realization,
That your ideas begin their withdrawal,
Now there is nothing nowhere around,
And no one to notice it’s gone,
There’s nothing left to hint at the fact,
That something was there all along,
In this nothing place,
With no one to say nothing to,
You can finally see that all along,
The most beautiful thing was you.

How Could You Be So Stupid

How could you be so stupid I’m feeling so confused,
Unless it’s possible that I’ve actually been used,
How many days and weeks and months will it take for you to realize,
The single thing that’s always been there right in front of your eyes,
Are you blind to love because everyone else seems to see,
The thing that you’ve messed up is the only thing that was meant to be,
How many chances must you receive before you can take the bait,
How many more seconds minutes and hours must I continue to wait,
How much more must I raise the price before your realize the cost,
How much more should I fade away till you realize what you’ve lost,
How much more do you think I can take before I can no longer live,
How much more do you think I can lose before I have none left to give,
Hopefully you come to a realization real soon because I don’t have long to last,
Hopefully soon enough I’ll have a déjà vu and my present will match my past.

I've Felt Your Pain Before

I’ve felt your pain before,
I’ve already fought and lost that war,
I promise in me you can always confide,
And on my shoulder you always can cry,
I know what it’s like to look back and it’s gone,
Like your past never existed you had it all wrong,
And I know what it feels like when your heart is ripped out,
And when the hole is filled in with sadness and doubt,
The pain so great you can hardly take,
And you can’t sleep because the nightmares keep you awake,
When you cry until you have no more tears,
When the world brings to life all of your fears,
When you quiver and shutter because it hurts too much,
And you pray for the warmth of their so gentle touch,
I know the feeling of wishing you weren’t alive,
And that there was a ledge off which you could dive,
I know what it’s like to feel their ghost just behind,
Like a message their sending that seems so sublime,
I know what it’s like to want to scream out in pain,
To want to pull out your hair because you’re going insane,
And it’s not going to get better it will only get worse,
Until the day you find peace in a short ride in a hearse,
And I know that no one can know the pain you have felt,
But I promise that this is something with which I have dealt,
I know what it’s like to hate everything you see,
Trust me I’ve been there it’s just like you’re me.

See This Smile

See this smile the cracks in my teeth,
Just a little preview of what I’m hiding beneath,
Holding in the scream so shrill it’d break glass,
I’m clenching my fists praying for this moment to pass,
Look into my eyes don’t they seem a little strained,
It’s because I’m not doing okay inside I’m insane,
Can you tell that I walk just a little too stiff,
Because in my head I’m debating if I should jump off this cliff,
Can you tell I keep quiet and that I’m not quiet there,
It’s caused by the fact that none of you care,
If I let you know how I felt you wouldn’t believe,
More pain in my heart than you could conceive,
And it’s not a little bit I’m filled to the top,
But it seems odd to me that the pain doesn’t stop,
It’s overflowing out onto the floor,
I’m really surprised that you could just ignore,
I’m taming the beast that lives in my chest,
I need it under control because I need a rest,
The pain is so tiring because it keeps me awake,
It put me in a slump that I just can’t shake,
One day I hope that it will all end,
So I no longer have to pretend.

I'm Like A Switch

I’m like a switch flip me on and off,
On the outside I’m hard on the inside I’m soft,
I make my own party or I cry in the corner,
I laugh and I play or I quietly mourn her,
I’m overtaken with rage or I’m filled with love,
Destructive and mean or peaceful as a dove,
Sometimes I don’t care and my mind is at peace,
And others painful thoughts never seem to cease,
It’s a smile or a frown never in between,
Because most who know me know I’m not what I seem,
One second I’ll be happy and the next I’ll be crying,
While I’m being so cheerful on the inside I’m dying,
I may act like I’m fine when really I’m broken,
It’s a secretive trait that I prefer unspoken,
Sometimes a smile or a wink of an eye,
Is really just hint an ingenious lie,
It’s a sign just to tip off those who will help,
With the pain that most have never felt,
I am surprised that you all can just fall for my tricks,
When inside I’m a time bomb that continues to tick,
Maybe one day my secret will be revealed,
My pain and my suffering will no longer be concealed,
My little switch wont work forever,
I just hope when it breaks you and I are together.

Common Sense

I love common sense,
Because one plus one is two,
And two plus two is four,
And I know no matter what,
It’s you I can’t ignore,
I love that its common sense,
That I’ll have you next to me,
And that no matter what,
Ill never leave you be.

Music

The Only time I ever feel free,
Is when I let the music play,
I cherish the moment when it’s on,
And this pain and hardship goes away,
When my foot is tapping,
And keeping perfect time,
That’s the only chance I have,
To take a breath and make everything fine,
Without the music I wouldn’t live,
It beats to the rhythm with my heart,
It’s the one thing I can always count on,
Because it never refuses to start,
In fact I think I’ll listen now,
I need something to calm me down,
Because I’m stressed and so upset,
At the fact that you are not around.

Do You Think

Do you think you know what it’s like to be me,
Do you think you’ve seen the things I see,
Do you think you know what is right,
Do you think you know why I can’t sleep at night,
Do you think you can fix me by making rules,
Or often treating me like I’m a fool,
Do you think the stipulations pushed upon my being,
Will somehow equate to something meant to be freeing,
Do you think my full potential can only be reached,
When my privacy is forcefully breached,
Do you think you’re like an angel standing over my shoulder,
When really you’re the devil and your heart still gets colder,
Do you think that something that’s never worked before,
Still could possibly be my cure,
Do you think when I say no that I really mean yes,
Do you think I don’t know what really is best,
Do you think when you talk that I wont ignore,
Do you think I wont do what I’ve always done before,
I hate to tell you but you think all the wrong things,
So back away and give me the chance to spread my wings,
Maybe then you will finally conceive,
The one single thing that you’ve always refused to believe,
Maybe I have something to teach and you to learn,
And then maybe my trust and my confidence you will earn.

I Thought I Was Better Than This

I thought I was better than this,
But their vote was pretty clear,
I thought they loved my deep thoughts in rhyme,
But things are never as they appear,
I thought I was utterly unique,
And undeniably one of a kind,
But I guess sometimes when you think you’re right,
You were really wrong the entire time,
I figured that I was the best,
Even if it was only at this one art,
But it seems as though even my most precious dreams,
The world can rip apart,
I thought that this was mine,
A passion no one else could share,
But I suppose when it came down to it,
They showed me that they didn’t care,
I really felt the magic,
When I read my strategically placed words,
But I guess I saw a beautiful message,
That no one else has heard,
I figure that I can still enjoy,
Each word that I write down,
And I’ll read it aloud no matter what,
Whether alone or in a crowd.

My Lonely Hand

Sometimes I stare at my lonely hand,
And I remember when it was latched on to yours,
I remember the warmth of your fingertips,
That so softly soaked in my pores,
I remember squeezing you once then twice,
While looking deep in your beautiful eyes,
I remember letting you in my soul,
Letting you see past my disguise,
I remember tightly grasping your wrist,
And intertwining our isolated fingers,
I remember letting go to open the door,
And feeling your presence linger,
I remember kissing the back of your fist,
And mouthing the words I love you,
I remember the look on your gorgeous face,
When you told me you loved me too,
I remember wishing I’d never let go,
And that you’d stay forever,
I remember saying that I knew,
That we’d always be together,
I remember when on my lonesome shoulder,
You lay your head to rest,
I remember the sensation when I felt,
You breathing softly on my neck,
I remember the scent of your lovely locks,
As it tickled the tip of my nose,
I remember feeling a current run through my body,
So sharp it made me curl my toes,
I remember the whisper of your voice,
And the way you said my name,
And I promise you that I pray every night,
That it will one day again be the same.

Is Love Really Just A Silly Game We Play

Is love really just a silly game we play,
When you know it would kill you if it ever went away,
How could you define something so pure and so real,
Something that finally allowed you to feel,
Are there words to describe something so unique,
Something that literally steals your ability to speak,
Something so powerful that it actually lasts forever,
So immense it can’t be had alone it takes two people together,
Can you explain what it feels like to no longer be empty,
To have lived so blind and then suddenly you can see,
Can you depict what it feels like to know that it was all a lie,
And the only thing that’s true is the way you feel inside,
Could you put a label on something you didn’t understand,
Is it more difficult than navigating a brand new foreign land,
What’s it like to know that you will never be alone,
How do you express yourself when you’ve finally found your home,
Did you know in a realm of nothingness love still finds its place,
And no matter how full the jar is love can always find some space,
Did you know that the most powerful things can never be contained,
And no matter how hard you fight love will never become tame,
You could never thank the world for the gift of love itself,
Not with unlimited power and surely not with endless wealth,
Love’s a virtue you can’t just receive you also have to give,
So love all who gave you love and you’ll know your purpose to live.

Something About Today

Something about today that made me miss you,
Made me miss us and all the crazy things we’d do,
I’d cry I really would but I’m all out of tears,
And I’d bitch and I’d moan but there’s no one left to hear,
I wish you were around I miss you more every day,
And no matter what this empty feeling wont go away,
I’m falling asleep but the pain keeps me awake,
And happiness is becoming harder to fake,
I really pray that I see in little time,
Because I know that you’re the one who makes everything fine.

I See Right Through Your Mask

I see your mask I see right through,
I see the kid that’s really you,
The scared little boy that hides inside,
Fighting hard just not to cry,
I see your guilt and I see your pain,
I can tell that you are hardly sane,
I want to help but you wont let me in,
Trust me I’ve done worse than your sin,
What must I do for you to believe,
That I would never attempt to deceive,
Please let me in I can help make it better,
I’ll be your umbrella in this stormy weather,
I’ll be your bed under which you can hide,
While this crazy earthquake takes you for a ride,
I’ll be your fan and I’ll cool you down,
While there is only heat all around,
I hope you trust me cause I know you should,
And when it’s all over you’ll know I did what I could.

Nothing To Write

Nothing to write my mind’s a clean slate,
I’m feeling so tired I can’t stay awake,
Just a few lines keeping me from bed,
But first your hunger for poetry needs to be fed,
I have nothing to say because I have nothing to think,
And of sleep I’m on the brink,
How many lines do you think will suffice,
Twenty would be great ten would be nice,
I hope this is fine for you cause it’s fine for me,
Now wont you please just let me be,
I think it’s time to shut off the lights,
It’s finally time to say goodnight.

What's My Message

This is meant to confuse you,
Twisted metaphors a message locked inside,
I wrote this just for you to dissect,
So you'd think I have something to hide,
Why does the sun rise just to set again,
I don’t know what that means to me,
But I’m sure there’s a purpose,
That only you will see,
What if I make everything backwards
Flip it all around,
Talk about hearing noises,
When you know there wasn’t a sound,
What if I talk about feelings,
But I mask them in love or hate,
Is there some kind of jumbled up lesson,
That you could possibly translate,
What if I told you how I really felt,
Would you finally be confused,
Would you feel as though I gave you a problem,
And to fix it tools you couldn’t use,
Maybe my feelings aren’t hidden,
Maybe the meaning is right in my eyes,
Maybe you’re too busy searching,
For my message in disguise.