Don't Really Care

I don’t really care if my parents love each other

Cause I know I love my sister and I know she loves her brother

I don’t really care that I know that they’ll read this

They can attribute it as an outburst and add it to the list

I don’t really care that I might as well have been mistake

I’ll be beautiful disaster, live like I’m an earthquake

I don’t really care if I come from a broken home

Cause the most gorgeous palace in the world is just rubble down in Rome

I don’t really care if my blood no longer feels related

My friends and I share love and that is much more concentrated

I don’t really care for my parent’s thoughts about this poem

Because as I write it I hear their feelings so I already know them

I don’t really care if people agree with what I say

Cause everything I say is right when nothing is okay.

No Happy Endings

Love’s a funny thing right now but I don’t doubt it cause of how you used to look at me

Do you know what’s gonna happen, since you died can you look into the future, G

It’s funny when we’re in a crowd we think the most but isolation brings epiphany

It’s amazing where our minds will go whenever there’s solidarity 

I’ve never had to feel alone before because my heart has always had a lovely echo

My knuckles have all turned white because even though you died I haven’t let go

I’m not a sad little boy and you’re not a fish my mom can go replace from Petco

You might think you hear tears hit the floor but my eyes, they aren’t wet though 

This call is long distance so when a question’s presented please don’t put the line on hold

I just want to know, if my futures in your hands could you tell me what you hold

If the devil put all his chips on the line would you see his bet or would you fold

Will I have the chance to walk along an emerald trail to see a kingdom built of gold  

I checked into the heartbreak hotel last night, I got the last room it’s number thirteen

Turns out I have the share the bed with a princess half my age, she lost all hopes of becoming queen

She said the kingdom had been destroyed by a mess of emotions too vast to clean

Told me she’s condemned to this establishment, she can never again be seen 

I asked her why she didn’t wish upon a star to go back to where things felt right

She told me that princesses exist but fairy tales don’t and when she looks up it’s dark at night 

Said this is the real world and you always lose and you usually don’t put up a fight

Quoted those who say things will work out and added two pennies on which she etched “not quite” 

I suppose that those who know the future are condemned to only demise

Because if a happy ending isn’t real then it only ends when we all die

And if a beautiful princess can never see a single star shoot across the sky

Then who am I to make the claim that one day as angels we will fly.

Dreamer

I’m an insomniac, no I take that back
Cause I always sleep and that’s the facts
Doc’s don’t really know what to think of that
Cause I got a constant dream in the form of rap

But I live my life so wide awake
Always chancing shit like the odds are fake
Life’s a dream just lived in wake
Caught on film so you can’t retake

All I ever wanted to do was music
They said it was dumb so of course I choose it
Rejection’s knocking but I refuse it
Keep my head up and I just do this

Live like I never know when’s the end
Love like I’m never gonna see you again
Laugh like I got away with all my sins
Dream like the ink inside of my pen

I Swear You've Smiled Once

Yesterday I passed you on the street

Tried to smile but you only saw your feet

Look up my dear it would be sweet

If just but once our eyes could meet

I swear you’d see where beauty lies

If only you’d lift your solemn eyes

Life’s a game and love’s the prize

But you can never play if you stay disguised

What could you possibly have to lose

No depression darker than your navy blues

So brighten up a couple hues

And one million choices come into view

I swear you’ve smiled once before

Unfortunately you now ignore

All the wonderful things you could adore

If you’d open your heart’s dead bolt door

Rhyme Scheme

Finally feels like we on top so I guess we made it

Executive asked me who it’s by and I said we made it

Love telling this story for the view of a champion

Looked in the mirror and wondered what dress would a champ-be-in

I have to admit I was getting worried and stressed out

But no matter how hard it got I’d never stress doubt

For a while I felt the industry was out of my confines

Then started looking for a loophole like what would a con find

Searched from sky high all the way down to hell low

Met the devil himself and I said hello

He said I shouldn’t have come cause the inferno’s exclusive

Gave me one wish but I must exclude live

Asked to find the secret to the industry

What would it take for hip-hop to induct me

Then I battled him for my independence

Satan should have known I’m undefeated in-the-pen-dance

He said what do they call you you’re incredible

I said look for my name up in the credits bull

It Saddens Me That We Have To Part

It saddens me that we have to part
Things hardly got a chance to start
But Cupid's a quick draw with a dart
And it’s too late now you have my heart

There’s something about you I can’t describe
It fills me up so deep inside
And every time our eyes collide
I get sucked in like you’re the tide

Any time that you are near
You make all the sadness disappear
For your gentle gaze is so sincere
That I’ve forgotten all I used to fear

There’s something about us that makes us click
And it seems as though it happened quick
But no matter how fast the clocks will tick
In a sea of fish you’re the one I’d pick

I wish this moment would last forever
Because I’m happy when we’re together
You’re the second half and so the better
A bond I’d never like to sever

I wish we could go back in time
A dial that we could rewind
So that our moment wouldn’t be confined
To the limits that clock’s have defined
Take my hand look in my eyes
I want you to see through my disguise
I am not the type who runs and hides
For I have only truths and never lies

I’d never ever try to conceal
I swear that this is completely real
A promise with a kiss I’ll seal
To show to you the way I feel

Suicidal Girl

I don't know what goes on in her mind
Her deepest thoughts so intertwined
With her soul which is so confined
To a body that she'll leave behind

I wish to tell her she can't be described
A book which could not be inscribed
But still she'd rather not be alive
She sees no reason to survive

I'm in love with a future train wreck
A car crash that will only crane necks
And leave dozens of bloody rain specks
So I'll be lost with none to gain next

I'm falling for slit open wrists
And one sad and final kiss
From a girl whom I will miss
When she fulfills her last death wish

I'm being swept off my feet
By a stool that falls from beneath
And a noose that will grant her relief
In the form of a body which she'll bequeath

I'd love for her to stay on Earth
But she'd prefer a ride inside a hearse
So goodbye to an angel who felt so cursed
That only love could make life worse

Inner Perfection

She is like the most beautiful sculpture I've ever seen
A girl that many wish to call their queen
But one knock upon this gorgeous piece
Will raise some questions to say the least
Would it be a shock to those who follow
To find that she is only hollow
To learn that beyond her perfect looks
She's like one thousand empty books
Would many jaws rise from the floor
If one exposed her empty core
It seems to me that we've all forgotten
That a gorgeous fruit can still be rotten
If we were all to wake up blind one day
Would her beauty go away
Close your eyes and see her soul
Where should be beauty there is a hole
Forget the outside it is just protection
For our true inner perfection

Never Really Left

To me it's like you never really left
It seems I've had quite a few dreams into which you've crept
I feel surrounded by your presence
Always within your familiar essence
Thank you for committing to my life improvment
Even though our separate realms are so far from congruent
I believe that apart we shall never grow
For I am unable to let you go
I know your capsule has expired
But it would appear that it was not required
Our connection is stronger than is this life
A delicious fruit, forever ripe
I swear I'll never take a bite
Until the day my soul takes flight

Greener Pastures

I once swam inside your being,
Focused so close I wasn't seeing,
So upon leaving I left myself,
Or at least a portion on a notch of your belt,
I'd like to call it my donation,
To the not-for-profit for sensation,
You taught me the most important lesson,
That love can be used as a weapon,
So I attempt to use it for only peace,
In hopes that one day this hate will cease,
For lying never helped a little boy,
Who found a wolf to engulf his joy,
I've since moved on to greener pastures,
Where every monster has his captor,
I now live the life I love to lead,
And lead the livers to love with me.

Live Right

I'll chase my dreams like kites chase the breeze,
But I will not be tethered my flight will be free,
Live every second as if it's my last,
Never look back for what's there is now past,
Hope for the best but plan for the worst,
An ocean of possibilities and my unquenchable thirst,
Look to the sky hear the heavenly choir,
Reach for the stars only to pull myself higher,
Drink water so clear out of only glass's half full,
Take every push and always remember to pull,
Be the best that I may but accept that I've sinned,
For when it's over I'll drift away like a leaf in the wind.