I Forgot What It Felt Like

I forgot what it felt like to be happy,
I forgot what it felt like to sleep,
I forgot what it felt like to smile,
I forgot what it felt like to be me,
I forgot what it felt like to love,
I forgot what it felt like to care,
And I forgot that no matter what,
You’re always gonna be right there,
I forgot what it felt like to breathe,
I forgot what it felt like to eat,
I forgot what it felt like to feel the warmth of the soil,
Soak into my feet,
I forgot the feeling of the sun on my back,
And now it wont leave me be,
I forgot what it felt like to have clear skies ahead,
As far as my eyes could see.

Don't Cry Tonight

Don’t cry tonight it will be okay,
You know I’ll be here for you day after day,
Please just let me see you smile,
Let me cheer you up for a little while,
Take your mind off what hurts you most,
Let it die and leave the ghost,
Forget it all and just be free,
Do whatever fills you with glee,
Joke around like you always do,
You aren’t happy when you aren’t you,
Be at peace like a lone white dove,
And always know that you’re surrounded by love.

Flying High Up In The Sky

Flying high up in the sky,
Watching the clouds just pass you by,
This what it feels like when you’re free,
This is what I used to feel when it was you and me,
The wind separates each strand of your greasy hair,
And you suddenly realize that there’s no one else out there,
You close your eyes and feel the warmth of the sun,
You take a deep breath and pray that this isn’t done,
You’re so high up you can see the stars,
You can see the moon and you can see mars,
Now you slowly descend back from where you came,
But no matter what the memories will always remain.

Up Down Left Right

Up is down and left is right,
Night is day and day is night,
I’m always tired because I rest,
And I always lose cause I’m the best,
I smile only when I’m sad,
And I’m only cheerful because I’m mad,
I hate you because I love you so,
I can’t hold on cause I can’t let go,
I never sleep but I never wake,
I can’t be me cause I can’t be fake,
I cant be forwards cause it’s all in reverse,
And everything’s great cause I know I’m cursed,
I’m really confused if you can’t tell,
And I try to be quiet but I always yell,
I got to say goodbye cause I just showed up,
I got to go home and go to sleep cause I’m not tired enough.

Million Dollar Baby

The strength to get up again and again no matter how hard she falls,
The passion to keep going even if she has to crawl,
Her mind set on one goal no one can bring her down,
The sea of hope in which she swims so deep that she could drown,
The fire ignited within her soul could never be put out,
No matter what the others say their negativity she flouts,
She works harder every day and not once does she complain,
Her progress is significant but she’d never speak in vain,
She doesn’t get it easy she only receives what she has earned,
She sees success but even so no lesson is easily learned,
She trains from early morning until it’s late at night,
She works her hardest so that one day she can have her fight,
She wants this more than anyone and she always lets it show,
To achieve her dream there is no distance that she would not go,
So much power is contained inside her skinny frame,
She won’t submit to her coach she refuses to be tame,
She proves that she has more will than anyone within her field,
She shows that the weapon of the mind is the fiercest one to yield,
On top of the world she is the best and no one can stop her now,
Until another decides that she isn’t prepared for her final bow,
Just one hit and suddenly her world crumbles to the floor,
The lights go out and she loses her chance to even up the score,
All of her strength won’t help her now she’s forced to remain still,
There’s just one more wish for which she begs her guardian to fulfill,
So with one more breath she says goodnight she will forever be gone,
But she won’t disappear because in the stories her legacy will live on.

The Worth Of Pain

Sometimes I wonder the worth of pain,
I wonder if I’ve lost or gained,
I’m not happy now but I was before,
And truth is something that you can’t ignore,
I know that my sadness is caused by my glee,
And I know that it’s too late and I don’t want to flee,
I’ll never be sorry for the virtues of my past,
I’m only sorry that they didn’t last,
I understand that some things change,
That someone’s mind can rearrange,
But I also know that some things stay,
And no matter what they never go away,
I know that confusion is the underlying cause,
I know this is a mere flesh wound to be covered in gauze,
I know you can’t see it and I’m not quite sure why,
And I know to your heart your brain always lies,
I know how to fix it but I guess you’ve gone deaf,
I’ll continue to pick up the pieces you left,
And one day just maybe you will finally hear,
And I hope that you know that I’ll be very near,
I don’t know what you’ll say and I don’t really care,
Because unlike you of this moment I have long been aware.

I Don't Think It's Fair

The lights go out,
It’s all so dark,
I search and search,
For one tiny spark,
There’s nothing left,
I’m by myself,
I don’t think it’s fair,
I deserve some help,
What did I do,
I worked so hard,
I tried my best,
Now I am scarred,
This isn’t okay,
What you have done,
That you’d knock me down,
And then you’d run,
You lied through your teeth,
Right to my face,
You should be sorry,
You should be disgraced,
Will you ever fix it,
Will you ever care,
Will there be a moment,
When you become aware,
Do you hate your self,
Maybe you should,
I know if I was you,
I’d do what I could,
I know that you changed,
And I know it’s not nice,
I know that your heart,
Is now colder than ice,
I hope that you’re happy,
Because I am dead,
I’m in the water,
And I’m sinking like lead,
I hope you know that every night,
I cry myself to sleep,
And deep down inside,
I hope you weep,
I hope it hurts you,
Cause I hope you learn,
That some things you are given,
And some things you earn,
I hope that you realize,
What you have done,
And I hope that you fix it,
Cause this isn’t fun,
And I hope that you know,
That I won’t be like you,
No matter what you say,
Or what you do,
Every promise I’ve made,
Still holds so true,
Because no matter what,
I’ll always love you.

I Hope You Read This

I hope you read this,
Cause I hope you know,
That unlike you,
I’ll never go,
I wont give up,
Cause I meant what I said,
Everything that I’ve told you
And everything that you’ve read,
I guess that you lied,
Or you’re very confused,
But no matter what,
It’s me you can’t lose,
Because I am quiet different,
Than anyone that you’ve met,
And I might not be perfect,
But this is as good as I get,
And if you still don’t believe,
Ask one of you’re friends,
Because I promise on me,
They know you can depend,
They know that I love you,
They know that I care,
They know that you do this,
Because you’re unaware,
And yes I am dying,
Because this hurts me too much,
And yes you can save me,
With your delicate touch,
I don’t know if you will,
But either way I don’t mind,
Because as long as you’re here,
I won’t leave you behind,
That’s what love is,
When you refuse to give in,
When you finish a game,
That you know you can’t win.

I Wish

I wish I was gone,
I wish I would die,
I wish it would stop,
I wish I could cry,
I wish it was over,
I wish it would end,
I wish you were true,
I wish you didn’t pretend,
I wish all of this,
Would just go away,
I wish I knew,
What you wished I would say,
I wish that these wishes,
Would all become facts,
I wish that my future,
Could go warn my past,
I wish second chances,
Really did exist,
I wish that his face,
Could just meet my fist,
I wish I would wake,
From this terrible dream,
And someone could tell me,
Things aren’t what they seem,
I wish you would realize,
What you’re tearing apart,
I wish that I knew this,
Since before the start,
I wish you just stopped,
And took some time to think,
So that you’d realize,
That slowly we sink,
I pray that one day,
When I’m all alone,
You’ll call me up,
And you’ll say to the phone,
That you’re sorry this happened,
And you want it to end,
And I promise I’ll tell you,
That this we can mend,
I promise we’ll fix it,
Because you’re always the one,
I promise to put it behind,
It will forever be done.

What Is This

What is sleep I guess it doesn’t keep me awake,
What is patience when there is nothing I can take,
What is food when I never like to eat,
What are shoes when I prefer to cut up my feet,
What is a chair if I’m never willing to sit,
What is a portion if I don’t want a little bit,
What is a book if I really hate to read,
What is a plant if I only want the seed,
What is my lack of money if I’m a rich man at heart,
How far is A from B cause my car won’t seem to start,
I guess it takes two to tango so it wasn’t the chicken before the egg,
But in that case who was hatched if there was nothing to be laid,
I heard that you don’t like me so I guess we can’t be friends,
But what would become of actors if they forgot how to pretend,
What are these letters that I’m choosing to make all of these lines,
What are the sounds that I am using to make this whole thing rhyme,
Does this even make sense to you how can we know what’s right,
What if we were meant to wake only for the night,
I think we don’t know what we think we know because how do we know for sure,
Or maybe this place isn’t what we think maybe it’s all just false allure.

I Guess I Cared More

I’m tired of smiling why should I lie,
Why should I care if you know how I feel inside,
I guess you should know that I feel betrayed,
I feel like you left when you promised to stay,
I remember you saying you’d always be there,
But if I’m not mistaken you just said you don’t care,
How many times have you gone back on your word,
How much can’t I trust from all that I’ve heard,
Should I feel like a fool that I always was true,
Am I correct when I say I’ve always cared more about you,
I’m amazed that you just let this slip away,
That there’s nothing for me to do or to say,
I guess sometimes in life you’re just a little too late,
I guess sometimes in life you learn that you can’t escape.

Just A Little Bit More

Push me away just a little bit more,
Push me further out your door,
Throw away all that we’ve gained,
Every bit so that none remains,
Break your heart and break mine too,
Do something you said you’d never do,
Cry yourself to sleep just one more night,
Just one more time say it’s gonna be alright,
Make one more promise that you can’t keep,
Make one more hole from which my love will seep,
Say you’ll give up just one more time,
Just once more ignore the signs,
I guess it’s good keep doing what you’ve done,
Cause I give up now yes I’ve said it you’ve won.

I Only Care For You

I don’t care for the stars,
I don’t care for the moon,
I don’t care for the sun,
All I care for is you,
I don’t care for friends,
I don’t have family,
If I had to pick one person,
I once was oh so empty,
And now I’m filled with love,
Baby you’re my angel,
Sent down to me from up above,
People search for their whole lives,
For the meaning of life itself,
You have taught me that it’s love,
Without you I’d be in hell,
I know that there is no one else,
Who could ever take your place,
I know that nothing could calm me down
Like when I lay my eyes upon your face,
I know that waking next to you,
Is heaven on my earth,
I know that no matter what,
I’ll always put you first,
I know that I have loved you,
Longer than the earth has turned,
I know that I will love you,
For longer than the sun will burn,
I know that for the rest of time,
I’ll be able to say,
I’ll love you twice as much tomorrow,
As I do today.

Giving All You've Got Isn't Giving Much At All

Giving all you’ve got isn’t giving much at all,
Cause before you know it you will hit the wall,
And slowly but surely you’ll crumble and fall,
You’ll realize that you’re alone and that there’s no one left to call,
You’ll sit there in the dark trying not to think,
And that night I promise you will not sleep a wink,
You’ll feel as if you are alone standing on the brink,
And into depression you will slowly start to sink,
You might scream out loud or you might silently cry,
But no matter what you do you won’t be able to hide,
You’ll feel only emptiness deep down inside,
And you’ll pray that you find someone in whom you can confide
The world will suddenly go dark never bright again,
And you will learn that there is no one on whom you can depend,
You will quickly realize that it is you who is your only friend,
And you’ll see that for your self you will have to fend,
You’ll then realize that on this earth you are by yourself,
And you’ll know that no matter what no one else will help,
You’ll feel a deeper darker pain than you’ve ever felt,
And you’ll learn that sometimes in life you must play the hand your dealt.

I Hate Everything

I hate it I hate it all,
The people the drugs and the alcohol,
I hate their moms and I hate their dads,
Because without them they wouldn’t be had,
I hate the teachers and I hate the school,
I hate the people who treat me like a fool,
I hate the fake friends and most of the real friends,
I hate everyone cause I know I can’t depend,
I hate the food cause it all tastes stale,
And I hate the colors cause they’re all far too pale,
I hate the air cause it lets me breathe,
I hate my eyes cause they let me see,
I hate my heart cause it won’t ever stop,
I hate my back cause it’s always in a knot,
I hate the fake girls and the guys who think they’re cool,
I hate all the ass holes who love calling me a tool,
I hate the people who pretend they’re someone else,
I hate the people that always want your help,
I hate the day and I hate the night,
I hate everything that’s in my sight,
I hate love and I hate hate,
I hate me cause I hate my current state
And I hate you too cause you’re alive,
And I hate that somehow you want to survive,
I hate people and I hate their pets,
I hate the people who think this is as bad as it gets,
I hate the people who care too much,
I hate contact cause I’m sensitive to the touch,
I hate the winter cause I hate the cold,
I hate time cause I hate getting old,
I hate TV and I hate the radio,
And I hate that this life is the only life I know,
I hate happy times because they just get messed up,
I hate what I give cause I never give enough,
I hate when I sleep cause I hate when I dream,
I hate lying cause I’m not what I seem,
I hate my feelings cause they mess with my head,
I hate mealtime cause I hate to be fed,
I hate the future and I hate the past,
I hate what happened cause what happened didn’t last,
I hate the confusion cause it’s an excuse for the lies,
I hate all the people who get lucky and die,
I hate all the music because I can’t hear it anymore,
And I hate life cause I already know what it’s all for,
I hate what I’ve had cause I don’t have it now,
I hate when I say that it all will work out,
I hate every letter cause I hate ever word,
I hate everything they’ve said cause it’s everything I’ve heard,
I hate what you’re reading cause it’s how I feel inside
I hate being me cause I’d rather hide,
I hate all the good songs cause they always have to end,
And I hate the fake feelings cause I hate that you pretend,
I hate how much I hate cause there’s nothing for me to love,
I hate that I know that no ones watching me from up above,
I hate that this is earth because what if this is it,
I hate that I’m me cause I’m stuck with who I’m with,
I hate time because I want to rewind,
I hate what has happened cause I put it all behind,
I hate everything because I always end up alone,
I hate this place because it doesn’t feel like home,
I hate you cause all you can do is sigh,
And I hate me because I refuse to die.

So Much Pain

Numb I can no longer feel,
The pain so great it can’t be real,
The throbbing pang within my chest,
It hurts all day it never rests,
The anguish that keeps me up all night,
It surrounds me with darkness there is no light,
It makes me cold to my very core,
There is so much pain I can’t ignore,
It never gives up I cannot live,
But my life I will not give,
I’d cry if I could but I have no more tears,
I’d be terrified but I have no more fear,
I have no more life and I have no more soul,
I’ve lost everything that once made me whole,
I’m empty inside I’ve been hollowed out,
All that is left is sadness and doubt,
I yell and I scream to see if anyone’s there,
I know you’re around and I know you don’t care,
You leave me here alone where I helplessly lie,
I know that you’re waiting and soon enough I will die

Little Bit Of Hope

Grab that little piece of hope,
Hold on with all your might,
Don’t let go cause if you do,
There won’t be any hope in sight,
Hold on till your fingers turn blue,
And until you’re out of breath,
Keep concentrating don’t let it slip,
Like it’s a matter of life or death,
Give it all you’ve got,
Cause it might be the last you’ve got to give,
Don’t give up no matter what,
Cause if you do you might not live,
Make sure to hide the hope real well,
So that it can’t be found,
Make sure you keep it in a place,
Where no one is around,
If you are patient you will find,
A time when you need it most,
But make sure it’s time cause once it’s gone,
You’ll no longer be its host.

I don't Know

I don’t know,
I just can’t tell,
Where this is going,
I pray it ends well,
I’m not sure,
I have a feeling,
Maybe it’s time,
For some healing,
I’m quite confused,
And a bit unsure,
I wonder how much more,
I can endure,
I wish it were over,
But it isn’t just quite yet,
I think it will be soon,
If I had to bet,
You never can tell,
You have to see the signs,
And they are showing me,
That this will soon all be behind,
Excuse me if I’m emotional,
When this chapter comes to its end,
But I’ve been waiting for so long,
You’ll just have to try to understand.

Quake

We all sit still as their world shakes to the ground,
I’m sure they feel lonely like there is no one around,
We send our best wishes but we’re not helping at all,
While we kick back and relax it’s their buildings that fall,
There’s nothing to do that is all we say,
But really we’re not willing to look for a way,
Imagine you were them and that they were you,
What would you wish for others to do,
Imagine your luck suddenly ran out,
Would you want other people to do more than just pout,
If you thought about it and you now understand,
Do what is right and lend them a hand.

The Pain I Hide

You don’t know what I hide,
All the pain I keep inside,
You can’t see my emptiness,
The lack of heartbeat in my chest,
I am dying but you can’t tell,
You don’t know that my life is hell,
If you knew you’d try to help,
But this is something you’ve never felt,
You have no idea you can’t relate,
If you’re here to save me you’re far too late,
This isn’t something I can ignore,
It’s more pain than I’ve ever felt before,
I know one day this will all end,
And then on me you can depend,
But I can’t help you now it’s far too hard,
My wounds are still open refusing to scar,
Just close my eyes and take a breath,
And know that this is far worse than death.

Rest In Peace

He’s gone but his music will never go away,
He stays in our lives every single day,
Inspired the world to do what is right,
Never gave up he continued to fight,
Now all is quiet because he isn’t around,
Since he’s left there hasn’t been a sound,
We have to remember his message and carry it through,
Because it’s what he would want us to do,
Hopefully one day all of our negative acts will cease,
And then finally he can rest in peace.

Living With So Much Pain

Living with so much pain,
Words could never explain,
Feels like needles in my veins
Making me go insane,
Feels like my brain is inflamed,
I can no longer be tame,
Let loose like a flame,
Things aren’t the same,
What is wrong,
Did you plan it all along,
Killing me inside,
Leaving me alone to die
This is my life there’s nothing more,
Nothing worth living or dying for,
So ill have to come out on top,
I’ll give it all I’ve got.

This Is Fake

This is fake,
They don’t care,
They don’t know,
Unaware,
They are blind,
To the light,
They don’t see it,
So bright,
Just give up,
On your own,
You are better,
Alone,
Some will follow,
Most will not,
Just take,
What you’ve got,
Be happy,
Not sad,
Filled with anger,
Don’t be mad,
You held out,
Your hand,
They refused,
To stand,
You fight for,
Your rights,
Success is,
In sight,
It’s too late,
Don’t look back,
Don’t worry,
Bout that,
Eyes forward,
You’re done,
How did you lose,
When they won.

What You Got

In life you never know what you got till its gone,
You can’t hear the music till they’ve ended the song,
You can’t throw the ball if it’s already been caught,
You can’t know something that you haven’t been taught,
You can’t turn around cause it’s a one way street,
You can’t stand up if you can’t feel your feet,
You can’t jump too high when gravity pushes you down,
You can’t catch your footing if you can’t see the ground,
It’s hard to close something that’s always been sealed,
It’s hard to be hurt when you never can feel,
It’s hard to stop sleeping when you were always awake,
It’s hard to be real when you know this is fake,
It’s hard to be mourned when there’s no one to care,
It’s hard to live life because life isn’t fair.

What Is Love

What is love I can’t tell you,
I could never describe,
What it feels like,
When you realize that you are alive,
What it feels like to be filled,
When you were once empty,
When you realize alone,
Is something you can’t be.

The Starry Show

The opening act,
The start of the show,
The one single sign,
That lets everyone know,
The sky filled with colors,
Shades of orange and red,
But the show is just starting,
So don’t go to bed,
It’s just a quick pre-show,
As the world dims its lights,
Then the stars will come out,
That is the real sight,
As the sky blackens,
The moon makes its debut,
Soon the stars will join in,
A beauty that is both pure and true,
Memories of the sunset have faded,
Overcome with the beauty of the moon,
This is the real beauty,
And as always it will be over too soon,
Soon there will be daylight,
The show must always go on,
Just don’t forget the world’s masterpiece,
On display from dusk until dawn.

Writers Block

Nothing to write,
No words in my head,
My brains like a stomach,
That hasn’t been fed,
I don’t have a message,
Nor the words to describe,
No magical lesson,
About being alive,
What can I tell you,
That I haven’t already explained,
Do I have any problems,
About which I haven’t complained,
There’s a wall in my path,
And I cannot get by,
It’s far too tall,
And far too wide,
Maybe tomorrow,
I’ll have something to say,
But until then,
Have a good day.

Have You Ever Forgotten

Have you ever forgotten,
What it felt like to breathe,
Have you ever been blind,
Only to see,
Have you ever gone deaf,
And did you hear a voice,
Did you say you were forced,
When it was really your choice,
Have you ever been wronged,
When you thought it was right,
Have you ever prayed for dark,
And all you saw was light,
Have you ever awoken,
To be in a dream,
Have you ever kept it all in,
While you ripped at the seams,
Have you ever gone through a wormhole,
Come out in another world,
Do you know the end of the story,
While you let it unfurl,
Have you ever come up,
From under the water,
Did you feel relived,
That you escaped the slaughter,
Are you ready for happiness,
Will you do what it takes,
To go back in time,
And fix the mistakes.

In My Mind

Trapped in a cage,
I call it my mind,
It looks like I’m free,
But to this space I’m confined,
There’s no air in here,
I can hardly breathe,
There isn’t light either,
So I cannot see,
I’m going crazy,
As sane as I seem,
I need to let loose,
I need to scream,
I am always around,
But I’m never quiet there,
Maybe you’d know,
If only you cared,
I don’t understand,
I’m so confused,
I guess I forgot,
What I had to lose.

Summer

Snow days are nice but I’d prefer school,
If only the summer kept us not so cool,
Surrounded by heat and covered in sweat,
Looking for any fan you could get,
So much heat that you can hardly breath,
Wishing that you were out on the sea,
The sun beating down with no surrender,
The sound of the ice being crushed in the blender,
A warm summer night where you can walk outside,
The heat all around so you cannot hide,
A cool glass of water quenching your thirst,
A dive in the ocean being completely submersed,
You finally feel warm inside and out,
Your eyes constantly searching for a liquid spout,
You feel content like you’re finally awake,
As you sit there quietly just starting to bake,
You’re filled with love and not a thing’s wrong,
You wish it had been like this all along,
A smell in the air that you just can’t deny,
The feeling that you know as being alive.