Motionless

A pat on the back feels like a push off a cliff,
So I stand here silently and just a bit stiff,
Not a breath not a word not a blink of an eye,
Not a thing I can do for I fear I will die,
I refuse to scratch while my whole body itches,
Wouldn't move for the world and all of it's riches,
No matter what I know I can't sneeze,
I stand here so still like a lake with no breeze,
My watch cannot tick so time must just stop,
As I stand on this world I feel it spin like a top,
I won't budge not an inch my final endeavor,
I will stand here motionless forever and ever.

The Reason Oysters Make Pearls

If there are plenty of fish in the sea,
I've found the greatest catch,
A hole covering seventy percent of my heart,
And she has just the right scales to patch,
It is for her that oysters make pearls,
Because she is too good for gold,
Even the devil couldn't outdo her,
So to she his soul was sold,
The song of the whale can't be translated,
Because the language is mostly dead,
But to the best of my knowledge,
They sing she needs a crown on her head,
The moon reflects right off the water,
For her just as a spotlight,
Because even when the land goes dark,
The world still wants her in sight,
Ships wreck to furnish her waters,
Bringing beauty to her sandy floor,
Cannot be caught because to the fishermen,
She is the ultimate lure,
She rules the sea along with my world,
Releasing her toxic fish love potion,
Only few know the truth that she not the moon,
Is the cause of the waves in the ocean.

Inferred

Whether a pad or a computer screen I hide behind my writing,
Because the piercing power of my words is all I need to use for fighting,
I can extinguish your existence without moving from this chair,
You may say that I'm afraid but I honestly don't care,
I can impale you with a metaphor or bruise you with a verb,
Using just my words I can kick you to the curb,
I can be fearless and faceless a mystery on a page,
Giving you a longing for compassion but only showing rage,
Maybe I'm a coward but at least I have my words,
It's my job to send a message I wonder what you will infer.

Let Me Tell You

You turn me into a man without a mouth,
I have so much to say but not a single word comes out,
I wish I knew just how you felt I don't like to play this game,
I know that whether it's yes or no nothing will be the same,
Please let me look you in the eyes and tell you how I feel,
When you feel my heart explode you'll know that it's all real,
I want to take you by the hand and let our souls connect as one,
Feelings bursting inside of us unaware of what's begun,
Just let my words ignite the flame that could burn forever more,
Because there's no one else who's made me feel like this before.

Blinded By Beauty

I am blinded by the beauty that enchants my existence,
I tell my lids to shield my eyes but they have too much persistence,
I could relinquish my sight but still I'd feel all the beauty's presence,
I'm overwhelmed by my surroundings which all contain a gorgeous essence,
It's warm outside but I'm always cold cause of the constant shiver down my spine,
Because everywhere I go I'm only surrounded by divine,
Since I first met you Everywhere I go I can only see beauty,
I guess there's something special about you just look what you do to me.

The Beach Is She

Her gorgeous sandy eyes remind me of the beach in spring,
I swear that she is a queen and I wish I were her king,
Her hair flows like the waves that crash on that very shore,
I've been poisoned by the world and I believe she is the cure,
Laughing like the seagulls call floating above the sea,
A smile so immaculate I wish that it was just for me,
A voice that makes me feel so calm just like the rocking of the water,
They say there's countless fish in the sea but I only wish I caught her.

Good Bye Invisible Man

Good bye to the invisible man who no one gave a chance,
Hello to the new one and his fantastic new romance,
With the world he's in love and she loves him back,
He has no worries because it seems there's nothing that they lack,
A smile more permanent than the crescent moon is imprinted on his face,
On a head that once hung weighed down by so much disgrace,
A step that has more pep than an entire marching band,
And a persona that screams everything except of course for bland,
A new start try number two the second chance to prove,
That there is such a thing as the man who not a single soul can move.

Your Name Lives On

Even though you are now gone,
Your name won't be forgotten you will live on,
Through things you said that are engraved in our brains,
And lessons you taught us through all your joys and pains,
Your laugh that still echoes even though you have been silenced,
And your heart that still loves after all your internal violence,
Through your eyes that stay shut but through the lids they gleam,
And your smile which even though underground still can be seen,
Through the signs which you sent me every single day,
Telling me that the love we share never will decay,
You're legacy will live on and I know that you'll be proud,
You'll watch and smile up above from the comfort of your cloud.

Time Is Stopped

The clock is literally frozen this isn't a metaphor it's really stopped,
I said I'd hold my breath until this minute ends and now a few of my veins have popped,
I'm stuck sitting here between seconds forty-five and forty-six,
Wondering if the whole world is frozen too just like this,
Waiting for it to snap back on and zoom to the exact time,
Hoping that the second hand and the twelve form a perfect line,
Listening for the sound of a bell or for my teacher to say goodbye,
But nothing happens because time is stopped and in this moment I'll forever lie.

Silently Screaming For Cupid

You are amazing,
I cannot describe the way you make me feel,
As if the whole world is fake but you are real,
I can't help but smile every time our eyes meet,
I usually have a good poker face but you have me beat,
I always seem to hold on to your every word,
And I will agree even if what you said was absurd,
I can't get your gaze out of my head,
Just a moment's exposure and my stomach sinks like lead,
I always hate it when you walk away,
But I can't say a word so my heart asks that you stay,
It's your turn to move but I am now mute,
So I'll silently scream for Cupid to shoot.

My Brain Is An Empty Vacuum Chamber

My brain is an empty vacuum chamber,
Not a thought or a memory inside,
No solution or idea sits inside my head,
So you see I have nothing to provide,
I've tried to think of things before,
But only a blank could I draw,
I feel like the scarecrow that went with Dorothy,
Except unlike he I'm not filled up with straw,
I'm pretty sure I once had a conclusion,
But it had no where to be,
Because no matter how hard I try to think,
My brain will remain all empty.

I'll Sing You a Lullaby

I'll sing you a lullaby to help you fall asleep,
The tremble of my voice will ensure your rest is deep,
I'll continue to grow quiet until my voice is softer than the wind,
My tune will be a dream-catcher so on your face will lay a grin,
No nightmares tonight all of your wishes will come true,
Once your eyelids close you'll do whatever you want to,
Because everybody needs some time where nothing's going wrong,
And I'm happy to help you achieve this bliss with nothing but my song.

Stranger I Love You

She has a way of making me nervous,
I can't remember my name cause I'm thinking of her kiss,
When I see her walk by all I can do is stare,
But I think she doesn't notice or she doesn't care,
It's something about her smile or maybe the way she walks,
It's also in her laugh and every word she talks,
I wish that I could go up to her and say hello I'd like to know you,
There are some crevices inside my heart that I think I'd like to show you,
Maybe we could go out some time I swear I'm as sweet as can be,
I think that if you look inside you'll like what you will see,
But I wont so I guess I'll surrender my love for a strangers glance,
Until you feel the same as I when our eyes do their awkward dance.

It Still Hurts

It still hurts,
To think of a man who lived more in a day than most do in a lifetime,
A man whose smile made a dark room brighter than a star's shine,
A man with a laugh that filled the hollow echo of ones heart,
A man with whom I'd always wished I'd never have to part,
A man whose small hands had painted the dreams of many,
A man whose entire body was filled with love in every cranny,
It still hurts to think of a man who could never hug me long enough,
A man whose touch was soft even though his hands were rough,
A man who didn't follow rules not once in all his years,
A man whose presence next to me relinquished all my fears,
A man who couldn't hear so good but could listen very well,
A man who was an angel even though he lived through hell,
It still hurts to think of a man who left me far too soon,
A man who I envisioned by my side the day I became a groom,
A man who did it his way and never could be stopped,
A man whose life inspired many and never will be topped,
A man who gave me more love than any person ever will,
A man whose place in my heart no one else will ever fill,
It still hurts.

Spoken Word Poet

I once heard someone say that they write life,
A pen is their weapon not a gun or a knife,
They silence a room with one metaphor,
Drawing so much attention that one can't ignore,
No matter how loud they are their echo screams louder,
The weapon they choose never needs any powder,
They never hurt or cheat or lie or steal,
But they speak of a day where there wasn't a meal,
Inspired by many but directed by none,
Start with one single word then they take it and run,
Until they've painted a picture full of words,
Adjectives and pronouns and conjunctions and verbs,
They step off the stage and return to the world,
But there's still the echo of every word that they hurled,
You wonder why in the silence it's the poem you hear,
It's because the message was etched deep within your ear.

Battering Ram

I use the sound waves from my music as a battering ram against my fears,
Bashing every thought inside my brain by breaking down my ears,
The more my headphones vibrate the more I can forget,
All the things that are in my life and have filled me with regret,
The louder it is the better I feel I even smile from time to time,
When I let the music play I know that I’ll be fine,
Maybe one day when I’ve finally broken down that door,
I will not hear and I will not fear not ever any more.

Perfect

She is stunning,
An image that screams gorgeous from the corner where she sits,
The tiniest crack of a smile on her face makes my heart race until it splits,
I know that perfection exists just from a seconds glance,
She’s the reason that the words don’t exist so they invented dance,
Her laugh is of the perfect pitch it hits note that all birds sing,
Too flawless for a sidekick she is both the queen and king,
With a stare that’s perfectly peaceful but could cut through you like a knife,
And a touch makes your heart skip beats taking a moment from your life,
A walk that speaks saying look don’t touch I’ve heard it all before,
A voice that sinks so deep inside it births butterflies within your core,
She’s so amazing and if she wanted she could make your brain short-circuit,
There’s only word to describe this girl and it is obviously perfect.

Give Me Some Light

I’ve been a one-way street ever since my lights went out,
And I know that one way is never the easiest route,
So I’m sorry for pushing all your lit candles away,
It’s because I feel I need more than just one single ray,
I guess that it’s my fault wanting more than I need,
It seems obvious my sadness has turned into greed,
I should have accepted that it’s not all about me,
I should know that the world doesn’t see what I see,
And I know that I won’t change because I don’t understand,
How harshly I acted when they offered a hand,
One day I’ll realize how alone I really am,
And hopefully if I’m lucky people will still give a damn,
All I can say now is I’m sorry that I could only fight,
Every time you attempted to give me some light.

Student Waiting

Dark rings around the eyes,
And he silently sighs,
Frustration escaping from the tip of his tongue,
Another week has just begun,
You can tell that he’s a student waiting for direction,
Open the book to chapter three begin on the second section,
Just far enough into the year that there’s no end in sight,
But the summer has completely faded like the sun into the night,
Sleep is but a dream and dreams are nonexistent,
In a world where even your workload can be just too persistent,
Going on forever like a beautiful landscape except this one is stripped of its green,
The sand and the sky are all that remain to what now is quite a bland scene,
He puts on a smile so that if anyone looks,
He’s appears to be happy and immersed in his books,
He is really just counting each second that passes,
Through all of his days and all of his classes,
Until the moment he hears the final bell ring,
And he once again hears the summer birds sing.

You Are Gorgeous

You are so beautiful that the sun rises each day just to see you,
There is no material that your glow will not bleed through,
So beautiful that flowers bloom in your presence,
Birds sing to hear the echo of your essence,
So beautiful that waves crash just to catch your eye,
People freeze as you walk by,
So beautiful that you can bring the dead to life with your kiss,
You're more than beautiful you are gorgeous.

Fresh Coat

One day I will die,
But I am no longer afraid,
To embark upon the journey,
That can only once be made,
I know I'll find my way,
As I go into the light,
The gate to heaven will be painted,
In a new fresh coat of white,
My guardian's the painter,
And he'll make sure that I arrive,
Because it has been many years,
Since we were both alive,
He's missed me as I've missed him,
But finally we will meet again,
Our bond of love is one so strong,
That only we can comprehend,
So when you look up to the sky,
And see a new star in the night,
You will know it's heavens gate,
Shining oh so bright.

Fighting With Music

The pain shoots through my,
Brain burns my eyes,
Too much hurt to think,
So I turn up these,
Headphones to blind my memories with sound,
Killing the images with musical notes,
I'm going numb,
The only feeling left is the vibration of the base,
Bursting in my ears and out my skin,
I thump to the beat,
I become the sound,
I become my own escape.

The Greatest Man Who Ever Lived

I met the greatest man that ever lived,
He seemed quite good to me,
When I looked into his eyes,
Love was all I could see,
The strength of one thousand men,
Lay within his heart,
Even as he moves from this world,
We will never part,
I know that he can't cry a tear,
But for me he'd flood a river,
I know that he could never fear,
But for me he'd forever quiver,
I know that in my darkest hour,
He will bring me light,
I know that when I'm at my worst,
For me he'll always fight,
I feel his stare upon my back,
And his hand against my shoulder,
I hear him whisper that it's all okay,
He said he will be my boulder.

I Think I Love You Too Much

I think I love you too much,
I swear I melt every time that we touch,
I swear your smile is the light of the day,
I swear I fall further with every word that you say,
I swear that of an angel your laugh is the voice,
I swear that what's best is only your choice,
I swear the sun sets just to let you sleep,
I swear the sky rains just to let you weep,
I swear throughout time my love won't decay,
Because I swear that tomorrow I'll Love you twice as much as today.

The Root Of The Music

The saxophones singing in the back make my heart race,
While the high-hat and the snare tap are backed by the bass,
Quietly the piano plays a melody in time,
The count goes to one and he begins to rhyme,
Words fill the air conveying simplistic values that hold true,
A hidden message in the storyline of what he’s been through,
The sincerity of his lines let you know that it’s all real,
And it’s impossible to describe the way that this song makes you feel,
You feel the bass in your chest and the harmony in your toes,
While it’s on you can’t help yourself from letting it all go,
Moments of peace brought on by the beauty of the music,
Like the artist’s filled with perfection and he allows himself to ooze it,
It’s amazing what’s brought on just by hearing the sound,
Your whole life you’ve been looking for the feeling you just found,
That’s the magnificence of the music the mystery within,
It makes you forget about the world and everywhere you’ve been,
It seeps deep down inside and fills all your cracks like glue,
The oddest thing is that the music is created just by you.

Fourteen Hundred

Fourteen hundred white geometric shapes,
Stored inside along with the digital tapes,
Ideas and works of brilliant minds,
All of different various kinds,
A complex case to hold simplistic views,
Decorated with varying patterns of varying hues,
Just a box but it’s so much more,
Do more than you’ve ever done before,
Fingers dance away making it click,
Making their progress so unbelievably quick,
No one knows what lies inside,
Just like their users who seem to hide,
Camouflage into one so they’re all the same,
It’s no ones fault their all to blame,
Oblivious to their emptiness it is quite sad,
To know they’ll never know what they could have had.

Three Fingers Means You're Blind

If you saw with my eyes you’d see the world anew,
You’d feel differently about your life if you knew what I’ve been through,
Everything is perfect until you’re shown the flaws,
Everything is peachy until someone breaks the laws,
When you’re closed inside a box and there is not a light,
You believe that life’s lived blind without the need of sight,
They say you don’t know what you have until it is gone,
Many think that they’re on top until the world names them a pawn,
There was once a man who looked only straight ahead,
A metaphor for the lives we live something that I once read,
I used to know a prophet who was oh so very wise,
Three fingers means you’re blind he said but he didn’t mean your eyes,
I will remember this mans message until the day I see the light,
Because I know the things which I believe will not always be right.

The Feeling Has Returned

The feeling of warmth from the sun on my back,
A feeling that I’ve been given,
I lost it once but since it’s reappeared,
I remember my purpose for livin,
The feeling of warmth that heats my soul,
And warms the blood in my veins,
The thing that I’ve yearned has now returned,
And with me I want it to remain,
The feeling of warmth that lights up the world,
And brings hope to all in need,
Only time will show if this feeling will grow,
Like a tree that was once just a seed,
The feeling of warmth that was gone for so long,
It was getting hard to remember,
But now that it’s here there’s nothing to fear,
As it warms our skin that’s so tender,
The feeling of warmth that I love so much,
Cause it finally allows me to heal,
No matter how far back I go I just don’t know,
The last time that I could feel.

Literally Metaphoric

This is literally metaphoric in it’s poetic essence,
The lack of its existence is the thing that proves its presence,
It’s the missing link on the weakened chain that holds it all together,
It weighs down the pack because you see it’s lighter than a feather,
You’ll never cross it because it does only what it chooses,
Ironically the path you make is the same one that it uses,
It seems as though it’s never there when the sun shines bright,
And it only comes out into view when it’s too dark for your sight,
It’s like the shadow cast by the bird that passed over the bright blue sky,
It moves along never right nor wrong as the bird continues to fly,
Just like the light that hits the water at the exact moment of dawn,
This poem will end but its presence will forever go on.

Happy Clown

The happy clown is a happy clown,
With makeup and a big red nose,
He makes everybody happy,
Everywhere he goes,
The happy clown has the biggest smile,
And the funniest laugh,
He’ll make you chuckle so very hard,
You’ll split right in half,
He has the biggest funniest shoes,
That you have ever saw,
You’d think that instead of feet,
He had been blessed with paws,
He wears the baggiest overalls,
With the brightest colors,
He’ll pull a quarter out your ear,
Then another then another,
He’ll then go home and he will cry,
That’s all that he will do,
Because it seems that the happy clown
Gave all his happiness to you.

Doesn't Matter Anyway

It doesn’t matter anyway,
I don’t really care,
It’s not my fault that the game we play,
Isn’t really fair,
There’s nothing you can do about it,
It will all be over soon,
Just like the blistering cold November,
Quickly turns to June,
If you blink once and it’s still there,
Close your eyes again,
When they reopen to the world,
The view will be changed my friend,
Don’t be so scared don’t worry at all,
Everything will be okay,
Because whatever you choose to do,
Doesn’t matter anyway.

Living For Tomorrow

Sit back and watch the day roll by,
Observe how people live their lives,
Rushing from point A always to B,
Never stopping in between,
The roses are sad they’ve never been smelled,
The people are bored all fun is withheld,
Always living for what’s coming next,
Doing things they think are best,
Never taking a break to rest their feet,
And allowing their bodies to soak up the heat,
One day they’ll realize that life isn’t long,
And that they’ve been living they’ve been living all wrong,
You’ll never guess how they’ll spend the rest of their time,
Not living in the moment but looking behind,
People in denial please open up your eyes,
Start living in the moment you never know when you’ll die.

?

The door with no handle just standing there still,
Right next to the man who lives with no will,
On the island that goes on never reaching water,
Watched over by the man who was birthed by his daughter,
On the planet that orbits only around it’s own core,
But that was only after something that didn’t happen before,
In a galaxy of nothing no black and no white,
Where only the blind are the ones who have sight,
The light isn’t there but you see it if you don’t try,
And you can’t reach the ground because it’s far too high,
In this place you suffocate if you don’t hold your breath,
And if you stop breathing you’ll never meet death,
In order to get there you must stay away,
And talk to the man who has nothing to say,
He might not give you the key to the lock that’s not there,
Because on the door there’s no handle if you weren’t aware.

Perfect Guy

Make her happy every day,
Always take her breath away,
Make her smile when she’s down,
No matter what always be around,
Don’t forget to be sweet,
And don’t make a promise you can’t keep,
Communicate your every feeling,
There can never be any concealing,
Do everything in your power,
To make sure that in love she is showered,
Be there for her when she cries,
Never allow yourself to lie,
Be the man who’s in her dreams,
Make sure she knows you crowned her queen,
As long as you never leave her side,
You will be her perfect guy.

Getting Nowhere

Driving in circles getting nowhere,
All I know is I want to get there,
The blackened tar with perfect white lines,
Taking orders from painted signs,
Swerving left then swerving right,
All through the day and into the night,
Never ending the road goes on,
Under the moon and through the dawn,
Grip the wheel tighter hope you speed up,
But no matter how fast it isn’t enough,
To be home right now would be a blessing,
But those aren’t given often or so I am guessing,
As the sun sinks into the sky,
I wish to myself that I could fly,
Over each car and each bus and each bike,
To whichever place I might like,
But I think I’ll close my eyes and sleep instead,
Cause my appetite for dreams never gets fed.

I Wonder

I wonder how you’re doing,
If you’re happy or you’re sad,
I wonder how you’re feeling,
I hope that you’re not mad,
I wonder if you sleep now,
Or if you lie awake in bed,
I wonder if you’ll see this,
And if you’ll like what you have read,
I wonder if you smile,
Or if you always to cry,
I wonder if you love your life,
Or if you want to die,
I wonder what is on your mind,
At this exact moment in time,
I wonder if you still have hopes,
That everything will turn out fine,
I wonder what you’re doing,
In your life from day to day,
I wonder if your life is good,
If everything is still okay,
I wonder about your family,
And sometimes all of your friends,
I wonder if they’re still around,
And if on them you can depend,
I wonder if you’re wondering,
About me like I of you,
I wonder if you are aware,
That I’m wondering about you too.

The Sun Beats Down

The sun beats down it burns through the leaves,
It burns through the clouds and it burns through the trees,
It heats up the ground sending squirrels to the shade,
And little birds into baths where they quietly wade,
It heats up the roads and the bright blue sky,
It heats up all the bugs as they silently fry,
It heats up the air and everything around,
It seems as though this is a deserted town,
It bronzes the skin of the women lying outside,
The brave and the few that didn’t try to hide,
It cleanses my soul from deep within,
By releasing sweat from holes in my skin,
It revitalizes my brain and heals my pain,
That’s why I smile while you all go insane.

Music Man

The keys sing louder than they click,
When they’re played by the man whose hands are quick,
The beautiful sounds immerse the room,
The show’s not over but it ends too soon,
His voice sings out with the perfect words,
The most perfect tune that anyone’s heard,
He keeps it going song after song,
Emitting his perfection all night long,
Never stopping because with the music his heart beats,
And it moves to the rhythm at which they tap their feet,
He’s the music man and it’s music that he plays,
And I know that you would listen not for hours but for days

Not My Friend

No eye contact please because I know you hate me,
Don’t look at my face cause that’s a sight you can’t see,
Pretend that I’m not standing here and just walk right through,
I’m sure that I would do the same if you were me and I was you,
I don’t mind if I get pushed or shoved because I don’t exist,
I promise you that I’m not real my names not on a list,
If you talk I wont respond cause like I told you I’m not real,
I’m something you can never see; hear or touch or feel,
Just keep going I’m like a wall you must only walk around,
I promise you there’s nothing to fear I can’t even make a sound,
Goodbye now until we don’t see each other again,
Have a good day and please remember that you’re not my friend.

In Between The Lines

This isn’t a poem it’s a riddle,
Or maybe something in the middle,
Read what’s in between these lines,
Look around what can you find,
A deeper meaning to my words,
One that really can’t be heard,
Beneath the sea of black and white,
Kept away from all your sight,
I keep the message locked away,
So it can’t come out and say,
The things I hide from all the world,
The stories that I twist and curl,
Right now you see it’s in your eyes,
But it’s hidden underneath the lies,
On the paper that you read,
The lies that grow like a planted seed,
I keep them away hidden from view,
So that no one will see them not even you,
And maybe one day when I feel good,
Ill tell the world like I know I should,
And maybe then there wont be riddles,
And no more lies not even a little,
But for now they’re hidden away,
And I’m telling you that’s where they’ll stay.

All The Hardest Choices

All the hardest choices are the ones we have to make,
We make the biggest sacrifices for our own sake
We do the things that hurt us most so we’re better in the end,
Whether we lose a loved one or we lose a friend,
Sometimes it’s hard to see through the haze to the other side,
Sometimes we only see the truth after we have lied,
When we make the tough decision we see the greatest prize,
Even if we see it through the tears that fog our eyes,
Sometimes doing the thing that’s wrong is really what is right,
Even if it causes us to lose all our sleep that night,
These things are so hard to decide but make your mind up my friend,
And I promise you that when it’s done on me you can depend.

One Back To The Other

Switch from one back to the other,
Like from sister then to brother,
Can’t decide but you can't have both,
But it’s a story that must be wrote,
Don’t toy with her let her live,
Too many times she must forgive,
All the destruction that you cause,
It’s all your fault she has no flaws,
Hurting everyone you touch,
Sometimes it’s just way too much,
So please decide there’s no more pain,
Nothing left for her to gain,
Give her your love or walk away,
Don’t choose tomorrow you must today.

Closing Everyone Out

I’m closing everybody and I guess that it’s not fair,
But no matter what I won’t let you in I want you to beware,
I’m shutting everyone out because then I wont get hurt,
I wont get pushed again and shoved down into the dirt,
When I don’t let anyone bring me up I’ll never be let down,
And I don’t care how it feels to me to always be left out,
Because being left out is better than losing it all,
And it’s tough to pick myself back up when you let me fall,
So I’m done with everyone else out there,
Because I know all along none of them cared

Sinking Through

I’m sinking in I’m seeping through,
And no one seems to have a clue,
I’m falling far and I’m falling fast,
Through the floor and then the grass,
Through the dirt and through the dreams,
Through myself in between the seams,
Through the sun and through the moon,
Through the floor boards in my room,
Through me myself and I,
Through all the clouds in the darkened sky,
Through the water through the air,
Through the pit of the earth the devils lair,
All the way through and out the other end,
And it happens again and again and again,
Through and through and through and through,
The one thing I haven’t sunk through is you.

Maybe Not So Great

You say that you are always here,
But it quite often seems you disappear,
And upon your return you have nothing to say,
No reason to give for going away,
It seems you’re absent more than you’re around,
Especially at times when I need you to be found,
I don’t think you care that you leave me alone,
Not even when you see the messages on your phone,
Maybe your not who I thought you were,
Maybe what I’m looking for is what I saw in her,
I wonder where you are now cause your surely not with me,
Maybe things are so very different from the way I see.

Choice A and Choice B

Two doors choice and A and choice B,
No one can make the decision but she,
It’s unfair but not the worst thing in the world,
She makes her decision and sees the story unfurl,
Problems and issues she couldn’t have known,
Finally ending up all alone,
She knows that the other would have been just the same,
Because she knows this is not a fair game,
So she sits and she thinks and she dreams and she waits,
For the judgment day to arrive a moment she hates,
Finally she chooses which one you might ask,
But it doesn’t matter karma will do it’s task,
Ending in sadness is the only thing I see,
Choice A or choice B choice A or choice B.

I Know Poems Don't Rhyme

I know poems don’t always have to rhyme,
But it’s something I enjoy much of the time,
Don’t question my writing as if you know best,
This is my home and you are my guest,
I don’t see your writing rhyming or not,
But I do see my writing and I have a lot,
This is how I write and most people enjoy,
And I can say that out loud I don’t need to be coy,
You see my rhymes possess a mind of their own,
And they can cheer me up when I feel all alone,
My rhymes make me smile right through my tears,
They make me brave when I only fear,
They make me sad when I need to remember,
The best time of my life way back in September,
And they never ever let me down,
When I’m on top of the world or when no one’s around,
So don’t tell me how I can write,
Because this is a battle I will surely fight,
If you don’t like it you don’t have to read,
But as for myself of rhyming I’m in dire need,
I promise you my poems will continue this way,
I hope that you like it but if not then don’t stay.

Exploit Me

Exploitation is most obviously key,
What other reason would there be,
For you to come and talk to me,
There is nothing else I see,
Abusing my talent and my drive,
No other reason you want me alive,
But to help you so you can strive,
Off a cliff you can go take a dive
I won’t be used in any way,
This isn’t a game you can play,
Ask me once more and I’ll say,
That you can really go away,
I wont be told what I can do,
Especially not by someone like you,
Yes of friends I may have few,
But I love them and they love me too,
So don’t attempt to confuse,
Because I will see all the clues,
I told you once now it’s old news,
I am someone you’ll never use.

I Wish To Fly

Have you ever seen a plane up in the sky,
And wished to yourself that you could fly,
With nothing up there but the peaceful birds,
Nothing to be said and nothing to be heard,
I too wish I could fly above,
Just like a plane or a peaceful dove,
I wish I could look down on everything,
And then slice the wind with my sharp wing,
I wish I could fly towards the sun,
Just to have a little fun,
I’d fly to the warmth and I’d fly to the cold,
I’d fly with the young and I’d fly with the old,
I’d fly in circles and figure eights,
I’d fly from early until really late,
I wish I could be that bird up there,
And live my life without a care,
Even if I was a metal bird,
The kind people once thought was too absurd,
I’d love to fly and I’d love to dream,
And leave behind a trail of steam,
But instead I sit and watch and wish,
And cross the impossibility off my list,
But ill keep my imagination alive,
And off of those thoughts I will survive.

Too Hot Too Cold Too Young Too Old

It’s too warm then it’s too cold,
I’m sad I’m young then scared I’m old,
I twitch a bit and roll side to side,
I feel upset but I can’t cry,
On my back then on my face,
In my thoughts I am incased,
Blanket on then blanket off,
As I let out a quiet cough,
Want to get up and walk around,
In the darkness of this town,
Midnight hours seem oh so friendly,
Don’t know where a walk would send me,
But I feel as thought I need to go,
And keep walking straight until I know,
I’m in a place where I feel the love,
Where I know I don’t need a push or shove,
Where it’s all perfect and I can rest,
Until I’m feeling at my best,
I really wish I could just sleep
And that my rest was pure and deep,
But my eyes won’t shut and my head won’t stop,
And like a fish on land I flip then flop,
Just a little too hot then a little too cold,
I’m just a little too young then a little too old.

Life Is A Maze

You have to make your own choices and live for yourself,
Because living isn’t living if you need someone else’s help,
Mistakes are a good thing they help you learn,
If you do everything perfect how would you discern,
Life is a maze and sometimes you’re off course,
But people can’t fix things unless they’re forced,
When you should have gone left you might take a right,
But the adventures you go on could be a delight,
If you give yourself freedom and do as you choose,
There will be times when you’re down and in the blues,
But how could you be happy if you never were sad,
How could you be pleased if you never were mad,
So go on and mess up learn a lot and live life,
Because you never know when the end of the maze is in sight.

One Thing I Do Know

There’s a lot of things that I don’t know,
A lot of feelings I can’t show,
Many places I haven’t been,
Many times I haven’t sinned,
Countless people I haven’t met,
A number of subjects I don’t get,
A wondrous world that I haven’t explored,
A whole part of life that I have ignored,
So many sights I haven’t seen,
So many things that I haven’t dreamed,
So many foods that I haven’t tried,
So many times I haven’t taken a ride,
From down below to up above,
One thing I do know is that I love.

Ation

Something I find quite interesting is regurgitation,
It breaks every single law of perfect sanitation,
It’s seems like such a crime but there is no incarceration,
Maybe somewhere else there is but never in this nation,
It appears that we are run like one big soulless corporation,
Where there is only time for work and never recreation,
As if somewhere back in time there was a miscommunication,
Which probably was caused by all the constant reverberation,
And then there must have been a lot of misinterpretation,
Which was obviously effect from all the over Amplification,
All of this led up to our malfunctioning creation,
Which always seems to terminate our attempts at inhalation,
I believe this is because we lack the proper ventilation,
Which could eventually lead to our accidental asphyxiation,
Upon our perfect records that may leave an indentation,
Maybe all these signs are really just a subtle indication,
That we should put an end to all of this urbanization,
I think this is a matter that requires contemplation,
So maybe we should start to think and stop all of the inflation,
Because it seems that we don’t benefit from our constant procreation,
It would be such a blessing if you’d give your complete cooperation,
Just so that we could explain the most obvious relation,
In between our problems and our persistent fornication,
If we study then we’ll learn the complete correlation,
Like a glass’s temperature and it’s level of condensation,
Maybe then we can come as one and finally change the station,
And we could receive the experience of a new kind of sensation,
I think that you will come now without a moment’s hesitation,
It’s just the fear like when the Wrights first thought of aviation,
Don’t be scared I know your faith in reincarnation,
You know what we can all achieve with complete determination,
A new world so this old one can finally meet its termination.

Beautiful Rain

I wish it was one hundred degrees outside,
But that the sun would quickly go away and hide,
Dark clouds would roll in with a very dark haze,
And it would rain as if it hadn’t rained in days,
The rain would be warm like the ocean in September,
And I’d feel more refreshed than any time I could remember
I wish the rain was so heavy that it hurt my skin,
Like I was made out of paper and it was wearing me thin,
I wish it rained so hard that I couldn’t see,
And that no matter how far I ran I couldn’t flee,
That I was covered in mud and dirt and grime,
And that the storm went on for all of time,
I wish the rain continued as the sun showed,
And a beautiful rainbow gently glowed,
I wish the rain would suddenly halt and everything was dry,
And that the rainbow held its place next to the sun up in the sky,
And I wish it was still warm and that it would never change,
Because once something is perfect it can never rearrange,
I think that I’ll dream of that wonderful rain tonight,
And I think my dream will last until I’m waked by all the light.

Failure

The conception of self-preservation is one that’s hard to contemplate,
Because the fact is that in your own hands lies your eventual fate,
The fear of being alone and falling too far to be retrieved,
Is a thought present in your mind that’s quite hard to conceive,
The knowledge that you could be faced with your imminent demise,
Is showing from the fear that gathers in your deep brown eyes,
You dream you wish you pray you hope for someone just to say,
I promise you no matter what it all will be okay,
Your mind is concentrating on being free and getting out alive,
But the twisted roads that lie ahead are quite hard to survive,
You long for the judgment day to come so you can be at rest,
Meanwhile you seem to consistently fail at always doing your best,
The clock is ticking and with it your time is running out,
So one more chance to fix it all and cure your endless doubts.

Mothers Day

Three hundred and sixty five days in the year and this ones just for you,
It’s the only day we have to thank for all the things you do,
For putting up with our crap and driving us around,
For your uncanny ability to hear every single sound,
For the love and compassion under which we are showered,
And our phones that somehow seem to always be powered,
Sometimes we don’t show it but we love you a lot,
And we want you to know you’re the best mom anyone’s got,
So happy mothers day mom please have a great day,
And maybe just maybe we will do what you say.

What's The Point

What is a word it’s just something I write down,
What is to write when you have to read to make a sound,
What is noise if I am deaf,
Why do I need a right hand if I only use my left,
What’s the point of hands when I don’t want to pick stuff up,
What’s the point of stuff when I never have enough,
What’s the point of substance if it always gets abused,
What’s the point of abuse if treatment is pursued,
What’s the point of pursuing something if I always quit,
What’s the point of quitting if I always give a little bit,
What’s the point of a little bit if I only want the whole thing,
What’s the point of wanting something when to it I cannot cling,
What’s the point of holding on if I always let go,
What’s the point of letting go if where I’m going I don’t know,
What’s the point of knowing if it’s all a mystery,
What’s the point of something mysterious if its something my eyes cant see,
What’s the point of seeing if every thing is dark,
What’s the point of darkness if the world can make a spark,
What’s the point of a spark of hope if it gets crushed below despair,
What’s the point of being sad if I don’t really care,
What’s the point of caring if I’m lying when I do,
What’s the point of lying if I’m just lying to you,
What’s the point of you if I don’t know why you’re here,
What’s the point of this place if it’s full of what I fear,
What’s the point of fear when everything will turn out fine,
What’s the point of a happy ending if theirs is different than mine,
What’s the point of what I want if I will never achieve my dreams,
What’s the point of dreaming if I’m not quiet what I seem,
What’s the point of pretending if there’s nothing for me to hide,
What’s the point of hiding if there’s no one in whom I confide,
What’s the point of confiding if I have nothing to say,
What’s the point of tomorrow if I only want today,
What’s the point of wanting if you want what you cant have,
What’s the point of having if have doesn’t have a word that rhymes,
What’s the point of this poem if I doesn’t rhyme one bit,
What’s the point of rhyming if it always sounds like shit,
What’s the point of writing if I don’t want to anymore,
Maybe it’s all pointless and nothings what it’s for.

The Perfect Song

So beautiful it’s utterly flawless in its existence,
Something that can only be achieved with persistence,
Nothing to be added not a single beat or line,
Everything’s in order working in exact time,
It seems to so perfectly make your ears orgasm,
Along with uncontrollable muscle spasms,
The music takes control inside of your head,
And paves a new path on which you are led,
It makes you feel like you’ve never felt before,
Like a shock of electric right down to your core,
But as soon as you regain control,
The song releases its grasp on your mortal soul,
It’s over and with it the moment seems to die,
Along with your previous state of being high,
Never again could you be so fulfilled,
Because the track faded out and the moment was killed,
But you’ll never forget the way it made you feel,
Cause no matter how short everything was real,
That’s the beauty of music it’s the only real thing there is,
And it’s never defined by race or class or hers or his,
Its just it and its just there and who you are it doesn’t care,
When you’re alone you’ll always know that music’s everywhere.

Bad Choices

You contradict your original choice,
While being argued with by your own voice,
Changing your mind a few times a day,
But when you’re asked you never change what you say,
It’s okay to mess up once or twice,
But it gets a little old once it happens thrice,
And it’s been happening again and again and again,
So I’m done there’s no more help that I can lend,
I’m all out I’ve worked so hard,
Even though I was continually getting scarred,
And it’s not my fault we don’t share the blame,
Maybe that was true once but things aren’t the same
You seem to cover up everything inside,
You’re not living a life it’s just one big lie,
Things seem to catch up quicker than you thought,
And there’s no more second chances to be bought,
I really tried my hardest I put myself through hell,
To attempt to ensure that your life would turn out well,
And yes I’m sorry that I failed when I tried to help,
But now you know the pain with which I’ve dealt,
I’m not going to tell you that everything will be okay,
Because I don’t lie with every single word I say,
But I can tell you one thing and that’s listen to your heart,
Do what it says and maybe you’ll find the restart,
Right now I’m the one that will say goodbye,
And you can have a turn at a daily cry,
I wish it didn’t have to go like this,
But it all seemed to change after that last kiss,
So live your life and find what makes it better,
Because ahead there’s a lot of stormy weather,
I’m living mine and I’m living free,
And I’m living a life where I’m living for me,
This is the lesson you learn when you mess up too bad,
And you lost every thing that you ever had,
Next time you’ll think before you choose,
Cause you never know what you’ll lose.

Regret

Regret always comes just a second too late,
It comes right after choice and just before fate,
It always shows up but never on time,
And it always sneaks up without a sign,
It’s always around which you can’t stand,
But it seems that with life it walks hand in hand,
Regret makes you realize all the mistakes that you’ve made,
And it continues to burn after the memories fade,
You carry it with you until the day that you die,
Every mistake every cheat every pain every lie,
It’s the kind of thing that you’ll never get over,
Not with all the happiness of children or luck of a clover,
It’s the kind of torture that hurts day after day,
And no matter what it wont go away,
Regret is the way that all lessons are learned,
Every speck of your joy has been painfully earned,
Why is regret always in the front of your mind,
When you’re reflecting on something that’s all far behind.

When The Clouds Part Ways

When the clouds part ways to open up the sky,
It unlocks the door to explore the deepest depths of my mind,
The endless blue going further than my eyes can see,
And I glance upon the sun that so gently shines on me,
The beautiful green grass gives contrast to this amazing view,
While the glint on the water is of the most extraordinary hue,
Birds fly by bringing with them moments of shade,
Temporarily changing this work of art that the world has made,
Trees seem to slightly sway with the rhythm of the breeze,
This is a moment in time that I wish that I could freeze,
The kind of thing you remember many years down the line,
Because in all of your life this instant is definitely one of a kind,
Close my eyes and relax and cherish this simple gift,
Because moments like this seem to go away much too swift.

Girl In The Rain

She stands there staring into nothingness,
Nothing in her mind with her nothing bliss,
The rain beats down on her soft blond hair,
But it seems as if she’s unaware,
Her white shirt drenched it weighs her down,
But she stays motionless as if no one’s around,
The blue jean shorts tight against her thighs,
Soaking up the tears from the darkened sky,
Little puddles of water formed in between her toes,
But she doesn’t care cause she doesn’t know,
Her bag is wet the contents may be harmed,
But she doesn’t check she seems unalarmed,
Every curve on her body outlined by her clothes,
Quite a beautiful sight just the way that it flows,
She continues to stand there alone with her mind,
Not accepting conceptions too which the world is confined,
And one second later she comes back to life,
Like she was suddenly cut open with such a sharp knife,
The moment has passed but the image is burned,
And she has lost everything that she just learned,
What a beautiful thing that just came to pass,
It’s upsetting to know that it couldn’t last.

Talk About Me Behind Closed Doors

Talk about me behind closed doors,
But in my face you will ignore,
And I know what it’s all for,
You seem afraid but I’ll settle the score,
It’s a discrepancy from deep down within your core,
It was all started when you lost your allure,
I’ve never been down this road before,
But I’ll make it through all the blood and gore,
I guess you don’t know what’s in store,
Because when you beg to stop I’ll only go more,
But I want you to know what I’m sorry for,
I’m sorry for it all in the depths of my core.

The Music Inside Me

I want the music so loud that my ears will bleed,
It’s growing inside like I planted a seed,
When the music seems to move my feet,
Like I’m taken over by the heart of the beat,
It’s the kind of thing you can’t ignore,
I confront the world and say I know what life’s for,
It’s something in the rhythm that makes me unafraid,
Like I’m ready to lose everything I’ve made,
Because the music makes me invisible,
Like I’ve won the battle and I’m over the hill,
But when the music goes off and the lights go out,
That’s when I’m refilled with all my doubt.

One Word (almost)

One poem that rhymes on one word,
Something amazing that you’ve never heard,
It actually kind of sounds absurd,
But I know I can do it as I’ve already inferred,
It’s seems you’re still reading so you have concurred,
That one rhyme continues as you have observed,
It sounds kind of neat and it’s hard to conserve,
The words to extend this poems allure,
This poem is actually a kind of cure,
When you’re dying for something a tad bit obscure,
It’s something that is quite hard to conjure,
Something to do with no one to subserve,
It feels very stressful I’m losing my last nerve,
All this for a poem that rhymes on one word.

Not So Bitter Sweet

I feel kind of freed but why is it bitter sweet,
As if everything is broken but piled nice and neat,
Some things are odd and some people are confused,
Some people are misspoken using words that are misused,
Don’t make this sound so bad we should both be happy,
If there’s a better thing then tell me what would that be,
Realizations will precede and may confuse you from time to time,
But if we take the space we need it all will turn out fine,
I know you know that I know we know that things didn’t turn out great,
But you have to remember the saying that nothing’s carved in slate,
If you’re unhappy it’s not my fault I did everything you said,
We took the path to a place we should never have been led,
Remember memories are good because they show you what is right,
But never allow the regret you have to keep you from sleep at night,
Forgive and forget is a lovely phrase and one day it will happen to us,
But not right now because I know we need time to rebuild our broken trust.

Aligned

It’s funny how I know exactly what’s going through your mind,
As if our neurological orbits are perfectly aligned,
How I can tell what you’re thinking when you make that face,
Or what you’re doing even when we’re not in the same place,
It’s difficult to hide something from someone who’s a part of you,
Especially if the thing you’re hiding is one they already knew,
Sometimes we worry ourselves into thinking that someone doesn’t care,
When in actuality that someone is wishing we were there,
There are few things in life that we cannot decide,
Few settlements are made in which choices are denied,
Sometimes it’s to late to fix something once you realize you were wrong,
And the suffering to pay your dues must always be prolonged,
But it’s the suffering itself that gives us the strength to continue,
And when it’s time to choose again you’ll reach deep down within you,
Making sure you do the right thing cause this could be your last attempt,
And you don’t want to make a choice when you’re filled with such contempt,
You’re coming to the realization as you read this word-by-word,
Because as we both know it’s a message we’ve both heard,
It’s funny how I know what your thinking while you’re reading this,
You’re thinking of that moment, the last one we shared in bliss.

Just A Little Bit

I hate this just a little bit,
Just a little bit of rage,
Just a little bit of passion,
Kept in this little cage,
Just a little bit of anger,
And a little bit of hate,
Just a couple of deep cracks,
In my once solid slate,
Just a few sleepless nights,
Just a few missed meals,
Just a little loss,
Of my ability to feel,
Just a few tears,
Just a little pain,
Just a little thing I’ve lost,
And just a little left to gain,
Just a tiny hole,
That’s implanted just a little bit inside,
Just a couple of rules left,
To which I won’t abide,
Just a little practice,
To fake just a little smile,
So that just incase I need to,
I can be in just a little denial,
Just a little thing,
Isn’t just so small at all,
When it’s just the thing I need,
When it’s my everything, my all.

Déjà Vu

I think this already happened,
I know I’ve been here before,
It’s a bizarre feeling of familiarity,
Which I can’t ignore,
I swear that I have lived this,
It’s some kind of déjà vu,
Every time I stray off the path,
I go back to this place with you,
I could tell you what will happen next,
But maybe we will act differently,
Because as I’m slowly finding out,
There’s absolutely nothing that we can’t be
It’s like there’s some kind of absolute plan,
Some over powering force,
And every time we grow apart,
It puts us back on the same course,
I guess you and I will never be apart,
We will always end up together,
Because in this world of broken trusts,
We found something that lasts forever.

Can You Really Feel The Beat

When you listen to music can you really feel the beat,
Does it take control of your body and forcefully move your feet,
Can you feel your heart’s rhythm syncing up with the sound,
Does everyone vanish so there’s no one around,
Can you hear the littlest noises in the heart of the track,
The ones that are there by mistake but can’t be taken back,
Like the slip of a finger on the guitar players pick,
But you hear he kept going cause it was too good to quit,
Can you actually see the noises like they’re painted right there,
And do you watch as they magically vanish into thin air,
Do you feel that this song could bring a dead man to life,
As if the noise is so strong it cuts through you like a knife,
Does this sound pumping out right into your ears,
Give you the feeling that there is nothing to fear,
Are you one with the music like it’s from your soul,
Is it filling the space that once was just a hole,
Are you so entranced with that magic that you know deep in your mind,
That there’s no better place in this world at this particular time,
If so that close your eyes and soak in every note,
Cause soon the song will end cause that’s all she wrote.

We both know you see the signs

We both know you see the signs,
I think its time to put the past behind,
You said yourself there’s no point in holding on
To the anger and sadness when the moment is gone,
So lets hit the reset and see where it goes,
Even though you and I both know,
You’re aware that I love you and you love me too,
And to be next to you there’s nothing I wouldn’t do,
Baby I just can’t wait to see you,
So I can say again hello nice to meet you.

I Don't Feel Like Writing today

I don’t think I will rhyme today because I really don’t want to,
But as you can see it comes so naturally this really must amaze you,
If I could take a break I really would today,
But I seem to always rhyme with everything I say,
I don’t even want to post this because I don’t want it to exist,
But if I didn’t write today tomorrow I’d be pissed,
So I guess I just rhymed a little I hope it sounded nice,
But that’s seriously it so goodbye and goodnight.

All The Same

Can you place me in a column,
Please put me in your list,
Show me the category in your book,
Under which I must I exist,
Can you put me with my carbon copies,
All standing in a line,
But first can you please tell me,
How am I defined,
Please don’t ask me to make the choice,
To dress in white or black,
Because as you can see originality,
Is the single thing I lack,
Can you tell me what’s my archetype,
Under which name do I fall,
Because I think we both know that I’m not special,
Not even a little bit not at all,
I’m so happy we all see the world in grey,
It’s much more beautiful when it’s plane,
I’m glad that you and I agree,
That everyone’s the same,
I enjoy in the lack of expression,
In everyone’s identical lives,
I love seeing the emptiness,
When I look into someone’s eyes,
I only have one question,
Why are you different than us,
Why in this world where we are all the same,
Do you not have our identical trust,
Why do you act so powerful,
And treat us all like we are weak,
Why can you tell us what to do,
When we have to earn the right to speak,
Maybe you should try being the same as us,
And you will hate it more than I,
Maybe then you will shatter all these rules,
To which we all comply.

Time

Time always slows down when you want it to go fast,
And it seems to speed up when you want the moment to last,
It loves standing still when you’re in a moment of sorrow,
And it won’t let today end when you wish for tomorrow,
It lets you catch the bus and miss the train,
It has you check it every second and therefore go insane,
It makes the bad memories stay as the good ones fade,
All the while tampering with the plans that you’ve made,
It adores making sure that nothing will work out,
Even when you had planned it without a doubt,
Time thinks it has influence but I think that it’s wrong,
When we are the ones who gave it power all along,
Time’s just a conception that we have created,
To make sure we’re not early and never belated,
An idea conjured up to help rules take control,
So we could never make a choice just because of our soul,
Taking incremental moments to keep an exact time,
So we could sit down all day and arrange events in a line,
Time is just a peasant to whom we gave power,
And now for some reason in its presence we cower,
Maybe if we stopped counting then we’d see the signs,
They say,
Wait I have to go I’m all out of time.

Bull Shit Light

The light at the end of the tunnel is so bright it’s blinding,
I can’t give up cause my commitment is so very binding,
I’m weakened now you wouldn’t believe who I used to be,
Once so strong flamboyant and courageous but that’s no longer me,
I’m holding on with all my strength being dragged to the finish line,
A place where I can finally say that everything’s gonna be fine,
I’m sure that I will get there no matter what the cost,
This is a race that I will finish even if I’ve lost,
I’ve been going all along with the weight of the world upon my back,
I think it’s time that you give me a break and cut me a little slack,
I want you to know that this light I see is totally full of shit,
There should be no light cause there should be no tunnel cause this situation shouldn’t exist.

Bees

Empty and so confused inside,
No one in whom she can confide,
Lacking the one who will show her the path,
She must get herself up and pick up the slack,
She travels the road to find what she’s lost,
To leave her home is quite the steep cost,
This is a quest that could end in her demise,
It’s success Inconceivable like the way a bee flies.

A swarm of workers but no where to go,
Like a truck with a tailgate and nothing to tow,
More confused than the scarecrow who lives with no brain,
Without a leader they’re going insane,
No one to guide them they’re flying so blind,
It’s a prison in which they are forever confined,
It seems that these bees have no reason to live,
Because they lack the one with instructions to give.

Something Is Missing

I look up but I see down,
I wonder how I lost the ground,
I feel like I can’t catch myself,
Like I’m falling away in such stealth,
It’s something only I can see,
Something from which I can’t flee,
Sometimes I wonder what’s going on,
On those nights I stay up long past dawn,
I find it funny how tired I feel,
That my body acts like sleep isn’t real,
It’s odd that my brain thinks it can take a break,
Not while I’m dreaming but when I’m awake,
Sometimes I feel like my mind doesn’t have thoughts,
And I try to think but my attempts are fought,
And I try to do nothing but nothing’s not fine,
It’s as though my soul’s searching for something I’ve left behind,
I try to remember but I guess I forgot,
The thing that my conscious has so vigorously sought,
It’s like a puzzle that’s white and some pieces are missing,
Like the tea pot is empty but it doesn’t stop hissing,
So I often sit and wonder what it could possibly be,
This one little detail that keep’s me from me,
It’s right in front of my face but it’s blocking my eyes,
It’s not trying to hide that’s why there’s no disguise,
I’m going to go now and think just once more,
And maybe I’ll see something that I missed before.

Don't Read This

Please don’t read this,
Seriously stop here,
What do I have to say,
To make my message clear,
Should I ask very nice,
Or should I be very mean,
Should I be quiet about it,
Or should I make a scene,
Can you at least close your eyes,
Look the other way,
I don’t think you’ll want to read,
What I have to write today,
So stop reading right here,
Or I wont write one pun,
I wont write one metaphor,
Okay fine I’m done.

Queen Bee

You are wrong,
Stop jumping to radical conclusions,
You must first hypothesize,
Trust me my words are all illusions,
Why are you so scared,
You don’t listen to what I say,
If you wanted to help me,
You would just go away,
Do you think that you are clever,
Like you’re connecting the dots,
You live like there’s a light above your head,
Burning one million watts,
If you really were so bright,
I think you’d see the signs,
They tell you to leave me alone,
But I make sure they’re very kind,
Do you think I’m like a rubber band,
Stretched so far that I’m severely cracking,
Do you think I live without a spine,
A book that has no backing,
Are you like the queen bee,
To conceded to leave the hive,
But when one of your workers has a problem,
You know what they need to survive,
You need to calm down a bit,
Think it over till you have a clue,
Maybe then you will understand,
That I don’t need you.

Nothing

Infinite portrait of white,
More blank than your thoughtless mind,
Sometimes the ideas with which to fill it,
Seem quiet hard to find,
Shiny it gleams and it beckons your hand,
To create a work of art,
You stare right through the empty paper,
You don’t know where to start,
So many possibilities,
To fill the endless nihility,
But to the vault where your creativity lives,
You do not have the key,
You see the beauty of the nothingness,
In its perfect nonexistent state,
There is nothing in the world more beautiful,
That you could fabricate,
Nothing is better than nothing,
Because nothing is nothing at all,
And it is in this sudden realization,
That your ideas begin their withdrawal,
Now there is nothing nowhere around,
And no one to notice it’s gone,
There’s nothing left to hint at the fact,
That something was there all along,
In this nothing place,
With no one to say nothing to,
You can finally see that all along,
The most beautiful thing was you.

How Could You Be So Stupid

How could you be so stupid I’m feeling so confused,
Unless it’s possible that I’ve actually been used,
How many days and weeks and months will it take for you to realize,
The single thing that’s always been there right in front of your eyes,
Are you blind to love because everyone else seems to see,
The thing that you’ve messed up is the only thing that was meant to be,
How many chances must you receive before you can take the bait,
How many more seconds minutes and hours must I continue to wait,
How much more must I raise the price before your realize the cost,
How much more should I fade away till you realize what you’ve lost,
How much more do you think I can take before I can no longer live,
How much more do you think I can lose before I have none left to give,
Hopefully you come to a realization real soon because I don’t have long to last,
Hopefully soon enough I’ll have a déjà vu and my present will match my past.

I've Felt Your Pain Before

I’ve felt your pain before,
I’ve already fought and lost that war,
I promise in me you can always confide,
And on my shoulder you always can cry,
I know what it’s like to look back and it’s gone,
Like your past never existed you had it all wrong,
And I know what it feels like when your heart is ripped out,
And when the hole is filled in with sadness and doubt,
The pain so great you can hardly take,
And you can’t sleep because the nightmares keep you awake,
When you cry until you have no more tears,
When the world brings to life all of your fears,
When you quiver and shutter because it hurts too much,
And you pray for the warmth of their so gentle touch,
I know the feeling of wishing you weren’t alive,
And that there was a ledge off which you could dive,
I know what it’s like to feel their ghost just behind,
Like a message their sending that seems so sublime,
I know what it’s like to want to scream out in pain,
To want to pull out your hair because you’re going insane,
And it’s not going to get better it will only get worse,
Until the day you find peace in a short ride in a hearse,
And I know that no one can know the pain you have felt,
But I promise that this is something with which I have dealt,
I know what it’s like to hate everything you see,
Trust me I’ve been there it’s just like you’re me.

See This Smile

See this smile the cracks in my teeth,
Just a little preview of what I’m hiding beneath,
Holding in the scream so shrill it’d break glass,
I’m clenching my fists praying for this moment to pass,
Look into my eyes don’t they seem a little strained,
It’s because I’m not doing okay inside I’m insane,
Can you tell that I walk just a little too stiff,
Because in my head I’m debating if I should jump off this cliff,
Can you tell I keep quiet and that I’m not quiet there,
It’s caused by the fact that none of you care,
If I let you know how I felt you wouldn’t believe,
More pain in my heart than you could conceive,
And it’s not a little bit I’m filled to the top,
But it seems odd to me that the pain doesn’t stop,
It’s overflowing out onto the floor,
I’m really surprised that you could just ignore,
I’m taming the beast that lives in my chest,
I need it under control because I need a rest,
The pain is so tiring because it keeps me awake,
It put me in a slump that I just can’t shake,
One day I hope that it will all end,
So I no longer have to pretend.

I'm Like A Switch

I’m like a switch flip me on and off,
On the outside I’m hard on the inside I’m soft,
I make my own party or I cry in the corner,
I laugh and I play or I quietly mourn her,
I’m overtaken with rage or I’m filled with love,
Destructive and mean or peaceful as a dove,
Sometimes I don’t care and my mind is at peace,
And others painful thoughts never seem to cease,
It’s a smile or a frown never in between,
Because most who know me know I’m not what I seem,
One second I’ll be happy and the next I’ll be crying,
While I’m being so cheerful on the inside I’m dying,
I may act like I’m fine when really I’m broken,
It’s a secretive trait that I prefer unspoken,
Sometimes a smile or a wink of an eye,
Is really just hint an ingenious lie,
It’s a sign just to tip off those who will help,
With the pain that most have never felt,
I am surprised that you all can just fall for my tricks,
When inside I’m a time bomb that continues to tick,
Maybe one day my secret will be revealed,
My pain and my suffering will no longer be concealed,
My little switch wont work forever,
I just hope when it breaks you and I are together.

Common Sense

I love common sense,
Because one plus one is two,
And two plus two is four,
And I know no matter what,
It’s you I can’t ignore,
I love that its common sense,
That I’ll have you next to me,
And that no matter what,
Ill never leave you be.

Music

The Only time I ever feel free,
Is when I let the music play,
I cherish the moment when it’s on,
And this pain and hardship goes away,
When my foot is tapping,
And keeping perfect time,
That’s the only chance I have,
To take a breath and make everything fine,
Without the music I wouldn’t live,
It beats to the rhythm with my heart,
It’s the one thing I can always count on,
Because it never refuses to start,
In fact I think I’ll listen now,
I need something to calm me down,
Because I’m stressed and so upset,
At the fact that you are not around.

Do You Think

Do you think you know what it’s like to be me,
Do you think you’ve seen the things I see,
Do you think you know what is right,
Do you think you know why I can’t sleep at night,
Do you think you can fix me by making rules,
Or often treating me like I’m a fool,
Do you think the stipulations pushed upon my being,
Will somehow equate to something meant to be freeing,
Do you think my full potential can only be reached,
When my privacy is forcefully breached,
Do you think you’re like an angel standing over my shoulder,
When really you’re the devil and your heart still gets colder,
Do you think that something that’s never worked before,
Still could possibly be my cure,
Do you think when I say no that I really mean yes,
Do you think I don’t know what really is best,
Do you think when you talk that I wont ignore,
Do you think I wont do what I’ve always done before,
I hate to tell you but you think all the wrong things,
So back away and give me the chance to spread my wings,
Maybe then you will finally conceive,
The one single thing that you’ve always refused to believe,
Maybe I have something to teach and you to learn,
And then maybe my trust and my confidence you will earn.

I Thought I Was Better Than This

I thought I was better than this,
But their vote was pretty clear,
I thought they loved my deep thoughts in rhyme,
But things are never as they appear,
I thought I was utterly unique,
And undeniably one of a kind,
But I guess sometimes when you think you’re right,
You were really wrong the entire time,
I figured that I was the best,
Even if it was only at this one art,
But it seems as though even my most precious dreams,
The world can rip apart,
I thought that this was mine,
A passion no one else could share,
But I suppose when it came down to it,
They showed me that they didn’t care,
I really felt the magic,
When I read my strategically placed words,
But I guess I saw a beautiful message,
That no one else has heard,
I figure that I can still enjoy,
Each word that I write down,
And I’ll read it aloud no matter what,
Whether alone or in a crowd.

My Lonely Hand

Sometimes I stare at my lonely hand,
And I remember when it was latched on to yours,
I remember the warmth of your fingertips,
That so softly soaked in my pores,
I remember squeezing you once then twice,
While looking deep in your beautiful eyes,
I remember letting you in my soul,
Letting you see past my disguise,
I remember tightly grasping your wrist,
And intertwining our isolated fingers,
I remember letting go to open the door,
And feeling your presence linger,
I remember kissing the back of your fist,
And mouthing the words I love you,
I remember the look on your gorgeous face,
When you told me you loved me too,
I remember wishing I’d never let go,
And that you’d stay forever,
I remember saying that I knew,
That we’d always be together,
I remember when on my lonesome shoulder,
You lay your head to rest,
I remember the sensation when I felt,
You breathing softly on my neck,
I remember the scent of your lovely locks,
As it tickled the tip of my nose,
I remember feeling a current run through my body,
So sharp it made me curl my toes,
I remember the whisper of your voice,
And the way you said my name,
And I promise you that I pray every night,
That it will one day again be the same.

Is Love Really Just A Silly Game We Play

Is love really just a silly game we play,
When you know it would kill you if it ever went away,
How could you define something so pure and so real,
Something that finally allowed you to feel,
Are there words to describe something so unique,
Something that literally steals your ability to speak,
Something so powerful that it actually lasts forever,
So immense it can’t be had alone it takes two people together,
Can you explain what it feels like to no longer be empty,
To have lived so blind and then suddenly you can see,
Can you depict what it feels like to know that it was all a lie,
And the only thing that’s true is the way you feel inside,
Could you put a label on something you didn’t understand,
Is it more difficult than navigating a brand new foreign land,
What’s it like to know that you will never be alone,
How do you express yourself when you’ve finally found your home,
Did you know in a realm of nothingness love still finds its place,
And no matter how full the jar is love can always find some space,
Did you know that the most powerful things can never be contained,
And no matter how hard you fight love will never become tame,
You could never thank the world for the gift of love itself,
Not with unlimited power and surely not with endless wealth,
Love’s a virtue you can’t just receive you also have to give,
So love all who gave you love and you’ll know your purpose to live.

Something About Today

Something about today that made me miss you,
Made me miss us and all the crazy things we’d do,
I’d cry I really would but I’m all out of tears,
And I’d bitch and I’d moan but there’s no one left to hear,
I wish you were around I miss you more every day,
And no matter what this empty feeling wont go away,
I’m falling asleep but the pain keeps me awake,
And happiness is becoming harder to fake,
I really pray that I see in little time,
Because I know that you’re the one who makes everything fine.

I See Right Through Your Mask

I see your mask I see right through,
I see the kid that’s really you,
The scared little boy that hides inside,
Fighting hard just not to cry,
I see your guilt and I see your pain,
I can tell that you are hardly sane,
I want to help but you wont let me in,
Trust me I’ve done worse than your sin,
What must I do for you to believe,
That I would never attempt to deceive,
Please let me in I can help make it better,
I’ll be your umbrella in this stormy weather,
I’ll be your bed under which you can hide,
While this crazy earthquake takes you for a ride,
I’ll be your fan and I’ll cool you down,
While there is only heat all around,
I hope you trust me cause I know you should,
And when it’s all over you’ll know I did what I could.

Nothing To Write

Nothing to write my mind’s a clean slate,
I’m feeling so tired I can’t stay awake,
Just a few lines keeping me from bed,
But first your hunger for poetry needs to be fed,
I have nothing to say because I have nothing to think,
And of sleep I’m on the brink,
How many lines do you think will suffice,
Twenty would be great ten would be nice,
I hope this is fine for you cause it’s fine for me,
Now wont you please just let me be,
I think it’s time to shut off the lights,
It’s finally time to say goodnight.

What's My Message

This is meant to confuse you,
Twisted metaphors a message locked inside,
I wrote this just for you to dissect,
So you'd think I have something to hide,
Why does the sun rise just to set again,
I don’t know what that means to me,
But I’m sure there’s a purpose,
That only you will see,
What if I make everything backwards
Flip it all around,
Talk about hearing noises,
When you know there wasn’t a sound,
What if I talk about feelings,
But I mask them in love or hate,
Is there some kind of jumbled up lesson,
That you could possibly translate,
What if I told you how I really felt,
Would you finally be confused,
Would you feel as though I gave you a problem,
And to fix it tools you couldn’t use,
Maybe my feelings aren’t hidden,
Maybe the meaning is right in my eyes,
Maybe you’re too busy searching,
For my message in disguise.

I Forgot What It Felt Like

I forgot what it felt like to be happy,
I forgot what it felt like to sleep,
I forgot what it felt like to smile,
I forgot what it felt like to be me,
I forgot what it felt like to love,
I forgot what it felt like to care,
And I forgot that no matter what,
You’re always gonna be right there,
I forgot what it felt like to breathe,
I forgot what it felt like to eat,
I forgot what it felt like to feel the warmth of the soil,
Soak into my feet,
I forgot the feeling of the sun on my back,
And now it wont leave me be,
I forgot what it felt like to have clear skies ahead,
As far as my eyes could see.

Don't Cry Tonight

Don’t cry tonight it will be okay,
You know I’ll be here for you day after day,
Please just let me see you smile,
Let me cheer you up for a little while,
Take your mind off what hurts you most,
Let it die and leave the ghost,
Forget it all and just be free,
Do whatever fills you with glee,
Joke around like you always do,
You aren’t happy when you aren’t you,
Be at peace like a lone white dove,
And always know that you’re surrounded by love.

Flying High Up In The Sky

Flying high up in the sky,
Watching the clouds just pass you by,
This what it feels like when you’re free,
This is what I used to feel when it was you and me,
The wind separates each strand of your greasy hair,
And you suddenly realize that there’s no one else out there,
You close your eyes and feel the warmth of the sun,
You take a deep breath and pray that this isn’t done,
You’re so high up you can see the stars,
You can see the moon and you can see mars,
Now you slowly descend back from where you came,
But no matter what the memories will always remain.

Up Down Left Right

Up is down and left is right,
Night is day and day is night,
I’m always tired because I rest,
And I always lose cause I’m the best,
I smile only when I’m sad,
And I’m only cheerful because I’m mad,
I hate you because I love you so,
I can’t hold on cause I can’t let go,
I never sleep but I never wake,
I can’t be me cause I can’t be fake,
I cant be forwards cause it’s all in reverse,
And everything’s great cause I know I’m cursed,
I’m really confused if you can’t tell,
And I try to be quiet but I always yell,
I got to say goodbye cause I just showed up,
I got to go home and go to sleep cause I’m not tired enough.

Million Dollar Baby

The strength to get up again and again no matter how hard she falls,
The passion to keep going even if she has to crawl,
Her mind set on one goal no one can bring her down,
The sea of hope in which she swims so deep that she could drown,
The fire ignited within her soul could never be put out,
No matter what the others say their negativity she flouts,
She works harder every day and not once does she complain,
Her progress is significant but she’d never speak in vain,
She doesn’t get it easy she only receives what she has earned,
She sees success but even so no lesson is easily learned,
She trains from early morning until it’s late at night,
She works her hardest so that one day she can have her fight,
She wants this more than anyone and she always lets it show,
To achieve her dream there is no distance that she would not go,
So much power is contained inside her skinny frame,
She won’t submit to her coach she refuses to be tame,
She proves that she has more will than anyone within her field,
She shows that the weapon of the mind is the fiercest one to yield,
On top of the world she is the best and no one can stop her now,
Until another decides that she isn’t prepared for her final bow,
Just one hit and suddenly her world crumbles to the floor,
The lights go out and she loses her chance to even up the score,
All of her strength won’t help her now she’s forced to remain still,
There’s just one more wish for which she begs her guardian to fulfill,
So with one more breath she says goodnight she will forever be gone,
But she won’t disappear because in the stories her legacy will live on.

The Worth Of Pain

Sometimes I wonder the worth of pain,
I wonder if I’ve lost or gained,
I’m not happy now but I was before,
And truth is something that you can’t ignore,
I know that my sadness is caused by my glee,
And I know that it’s too late and I don’t want to flee,
I’ll never be sorry for the virtues of my past,
I’m only sorry that they didn’t last,
I understand that some things change,
That someone’s mind can rearrange,
But I also know that some things stay,
And no matter what they never go away,
I know that confusion is the underlying cause,
I know this is a mere flesh wound to be covered in gauze,
I know you can’t see it and I’m not quite sure why,
And I know to your heart your brain always lies,
I know how to fix it but I guess you’ve gone deaf,
I’ll continue to pick up the pieces you left,
And one day just maybe you will finally hear,
And I hope that you know that I’ll be very near,
I don’t know what you’ll say and I don’t really care,
Because unlike you of this moment I have long been aware.

I Don't Think It's Fair

The lights go out,
It’s all so dark,
I search and search,
For one tiny spark,
There’s nothing left,
I’m by myself,
I don’t think it’s fair,
I deserve some help,
What did I do,
I worked so hard,
I tried my best,
Now I am scarred,
This isn’t okay,
What you have done,
That you’d knock me down,
And then you’d run,
You lied through your teeth,
Right to my face,
You should be sorry,
You should be disgraced,
Will you ever fix it,
Will you ever care,
Will there be a moment,
When you become aware,
Do you hate your self,
Maybe you should,
I know if I was you,
I’d do what I could,
I know that you changed,
And I know it’s not nice,
I know that your heart,
Is now colder than ice,
I hope that you’re happy,
Because I am dead,
I’m in the water,
And I’m sinking like lead,
I hope you know that every night,
I cry myself to sleep,
And deep down inside,
I hope you weep,
I hope it hurts you,
Cause I hope you learn,
That some things you are given,
And some things you earn,
I hope that you realize,
What you have done,
And I hope that you fix it,
Cause this isn’t fun,
And I hope that you know,
That I won’t be like you,
No matter what you say,
Or what you do,
Every promise I’ve made,
Still holds so true,
Because no matter what,
I’ll always love you.

I Hope You Read This

I hope you read this,
Cause I hope you know,
That unlike you,
I’ll never go,
I wont give up,
Cause I meant what I said,
Everything that I’ve told you
And everything that you’ve read,
I guess that you lied,
Or you’re very confused,
But no matter what,
It’s me you can’t lose,
Because I am quiet different,
Than anyone that you’ve met,
And I might not be perfect,
But this is as good as I get,
And if you still don’t believe,
Ask one of you’re friends,
Because I promise on me,
They know you can depend,
They know that I love you,
They know that I care,
They know that you do this,
Because you’re unaware,
And yes I am dying,
Because this hurts me too much,
And yes you can save me,
With your delicate touch,
I don’t know if you will,
But either way I don’t mind,
Because as long as you’re here,
I won’t leave you behind,
That’s what love is,
When you refuse to give in,
When you finish a game,
That you know you can’t win.

I Wish

I wish I was gone,
I wish I would die,
I wish it would stop,
I wish I could cry,
I wish it was over,
I wish it would end,
I wish you were true,
I wish you didn’t pretend,
I wish all of this,
Would just go away,
I wish I knew,
What you wished I would say,
I wish that these wishes,
Would all become facts,
I wish that my future,
Could go warn my past,
I wish second chances,
Really did exist,
I wish that his face,
Could just meet my fist,
I wish I would wake,
From this terrible dream,
And someone could tell me,
Things aren’t what they seem,
I wish you would realize,
What you’re tearing apart,
I wish that I knew this,
Since before the start,
I wish you just stopped,
And took some time to think,
So that you’d realize,
That slowly we sink,
I pray that one day,
When I’m all alone,
You’ll call me up,
And you’ll say to the phone,
That you’re sorry this happened,
And you want it to end,
And I promise I’ll tell you,
That this we can mend,
I promise we’ll fix it,
Because you’re always the one,
I promise to put it behind,
It will forever be done.

What Is This

What is sleep I guess it doesn’t keep me awake,
What is patience when there is nothing I can take,
What is food when I never like to eat,
What are shoes when I prefer to cut up my feet,
What is a chair if I’m never willing to sit,
What is a portion if I don’t want a little bit,
What is a book if I really hate to read,
What is a plant if I only want the seed,
What is my lack of money if I’m a rich man at heart,
How far is A from B cause my car won’t seem to start,
I guess it takes two to tango so it wasn’t the chicken before the egg,
But in that case who was hatched if there was nothing to be laid,
I heard that you don’t like me so I guess we can’t be friends,
But what would become of actors if they forgot how to pretend,
What are these letters that I’m choosing to make all of these lines,
What are the sounds that I am using to make this whole thing rhyme,
Does this even make sense to you how can we know what’s right,
What if we were meant to wake only for the night,
I think we don’t know what we think we know because how do we know for sure,
Or maybe this place isn’t what we think maybe it’s all just false allure.

I Guess I Cared More

I’m tired of smiling why should I lie,
Why should I care if you know how I feel inside,
I guess you should know that I feel betrayed,
I feel like you left when you promised to stay,
I remember you saying you’d always be there,
But if I’m not mistaken you just said you don’t care,
How many times have you gone back on your word,
How much can’t I trust from all that I’ve heard,
Should I feel like a fool that I always was true,
Am I correct when I say I’ve always cared more about you,
I’m amazed that you just let this slip away,
That there’s nothing for me to do or to say,
I guess sometimes in life you’re just a little too late,
I guess sometimes in life you learn that you can’t escape.

Just A Little Bit More

Push me away just a little bit more,
Push me further out your door,
Throw away all that we’ve gained,
Every bit so that none remains,
Break your heart and break mine too,
Do something you said you’d never do,
Cry yourself to sleep just one more night,
Just one more time say it’s gonna be alright,
Make one more promise that you can’t keep,
Make one more hole from which my love will seep,
Say you’ll give up just one more time,
Just once more ignore the signs,
I guess it’s good keep doing what you’ve done,
Cause I give up now yes I’ve said it you’ve won.

I Only Care For You

I don’t care for the stars,
I don’t care for the moon,
I don’t care for the sun,
All I care for is you,
I don’t care for friends,
I don’t have family,
If I had to pick one person,
I once was oh so empty,
And now I’m filled with love,
Baby you’re my angel,
Sent down to me from up above,
People search for their whole lives,
For the meaning of life itself,
You have taught me that it’s love,
Without you I’d be in hell,
I know that there is no one else,
Who could ever take your place,
I know that nothing could calm me down
Like when I lay my eyes upon your face,
I know that waking next to you,
Is heaven on my earth,
I know that no matter what,
I’ll always put you first,
I know that I have loved you,
Longer than the earth has turned,
I know that I will love you,
For longer than the sun will burn,
I know that for the rest of time,
I’ll be able to say,
I’ll love you twice as much tomorrow,
As I do today.

Giving All You've Got Isn't Giving Much At All

Giving all you’ve got isn’t giving much at all,
Cause before you know it you will hit the wall,
And slowly but surely you’ll crumble and fall,
You’ll realize that you’re alone and that there’s no one left to call,
You’ll sit there in the dark trying not to think,
And that night I promise you will not sleep a wink,
You’ll feel as if you are alone standing on the brink,
And into depression you will slowly start to sink,
You might scream out loud or you might silently cry,
But no matter what you do you won’t be able to hide,
You’ll feel only emptiness deep down inside,
And you’ll pray that you find someone in whom you can confide
The world will suddenly go dark never bright again,
And you will learn that there is no one on whom you can depend,
You will quickly realize that it is you who is your only friend,
And you’ll see that for your self you will have to fend,
You’ll then realize that on this earth you are by yourself,
And you’ll know that no matter what no one else will help,
You’ll feel a deeper darker pain than you’ve ever felt,
And you’ll learn that sometimes in life you must play the hand your dealt.

I Hate Everything

I hate it I hate it all,
The people the drugs and the alcohol,
I hate their moms and I hate their dads,
Because without them they wouldn’t be had,
I hate the teachers and I hate the school,
I hate the people who treat me like a fool,
I hate the fake friends and most of the real friends,
I hate everyone cause I know I can’t depend,
I hate the food cause it all tastes stale,
And I hate the colors cause they’re all far too pale,
I hate the air cause it lets me breathe,
I hate my eyes cause they let me see,
I hate my heart cause it won’t ever stop,
I hate my back cause it’s always in a knot,
I hate the fake girls and the guys who think they’re cool,
I hate all the ass holes who love calling me a tool,
I hate the people who pretend they’re someone else,
I hate the people that always want your help,
I hate the day and I hate the night,
I hate everything that’s in my sight,
I hate love and I hate hate,
I hate me cause I hate my current state
And I hate you too cause you’re alive,
And I hate that somehow you want to survive,
I hate people and I hate their pets,
I hate the people who think this is as bad as it gets,
I hate the people who care too much,
I hate contact cause I’m sensitive to the touch,
I hate the winter cause I hate the cold,
I hate time cause I hate getting old,
I hate TV and I hate the radio,
And I hate that this life is the only life I know,
I hate happy times because they just get messed up,
I hate what I give cause I never give enough,
I hate when I sleep cause I hate when I dream,
I hate lying cause I’m not what I seem,
I hate my feelings cause they mess with my head,
I hate mealtime cause I hate to be fed,
I hate the future and I hate the past,
I hate what happened cause what happened didn’t last,
I hate the confusion cause it’s an excuse for the lies,
I hate all the people who get lucky and die,
I hate all the music because I can’t hear it anymore,
And I hate life cause I already know what it’s all for,
I hate what I’ve had cause I don’t have it now,
I hate when I say that it all will work out,
I hate every letter cause I hate ever word,
I hate everything they’ve said cause it’s everything I’ve heard,
I hate what you’re reading cause it’s how I feel inside
I hate being me cause I’d rather hide,
I hate all the good songs cause they always have to end,
And I hate the fake feelings cause I hate that you pretend,
I hate how much I hate cause there’s nothing for me to love,
I hate that I know that no ones watching me from up above,
I hate that this is earth because what if this is it,
I hate that I’m me cause I’m stuck with who I’m with,
I hate time because I want to rewind,
I hate what has happened cause I put it all behind,
I hate everything because I always end up alone,
I hate this place because it doesn’t feel like home,
I hate you cause all you can do is sigh,
And I hate me because I refuse to die.